I do that too! I have always been obsessed with disasters...especially plane crashes and national emergencies like 9/11. I always put myself in the shoes of the victims or people who have lived through that ordeal. It's weird because I am an empathic person and I feel sorry for them, but feel excited and thrilled when I imagine the scenario. I love being scared.
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Given a “tentative” diagnosis as a child as I needed services at school for what was later correctly discovered to be a major anxiety disorder.
This misdiagnosis caused me significant stress, which lessened upon finding out the truth about myself from my current and past long-term therapists - that I am an anxious and highly sensitive person but do not have an autism spectrum disorder.
My diagnoses - social anxiety disorder and obsessive-compulsive disorder.
I’m no longer involved with the ASD world.