Some Suprise Reflections of School After Aspergers Diagnosis

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When I came back after the visit the doctor who did my diagnosis after he told me I had Aspergers he then said I did not have any sign of ADHD. That remark flipped my wig like you would not believe. He also told me I should have not been put into special education in his opinion.

My whole time in school was spent being embarressed about being in special education I always felt I did not belong there. I was also beaten, spit on, set on fire once , and made fun of for being in special education almost on a daily basis. That coupled with my weirdness made people think I was ret*d so it was alright to pick on me. I would talk to new people in school who never met me before, they would find me to be funny, a little weird but in good way, and perhaps a little shy they would hang out with me with no problems. Thats until someone would walk up to us and ask the person why they were hanging with a ret*d. They would laugh and say he's no ret*d then they would ask why was he in those small classes up stairs. That would be the last time I hung out with that person they all of a sudden would be busy or would have something that would keep them from doing anything with me. From first grade to tenth grade I was treated like a pariah for being in those classes but when I was out of them from eleventh to twelth grade I was left alone wtf is up with that all of a sudden I was nolonger a ret*d to them.

I wonder how different my life would have been if I never was in those special education classes? Did my being there keep someone else who needed to be there from getting a proper education? The teachers were always telling me how hard it was for students who need help to get in special education since there were a limited amount of seats in the classes I should consider myself lucky I got in. If I had been born in the late eighties instead of the seventies they would have given me a proper diagnosis perhaps for the better. I think they just put me in there because I was different from the other kids.

I've went through the same thing at school, a boy even broke my arm (and I was born in 1989, but Asperger, dyslexia, dyspraxia, dyscalculia, non verbal learning disorder, ADD are not diagnosed properly in my country -many parents agree with me on this point and it may seem strange for a European country).

I don't even know if they have special classes for those who need it but I'm pretty sure that kids create their own norm in those classes.

I really don't know what to say actually since I have been to a "normal" school and was rejected and considered as both a smart nerd and a ret*d. My friends who were rejected too were not so normal themselves. I have a friend who as an IQ between the above-average/slightly gifted range (and she had a huge ego because of that) and is bipolar - another who has Stargardt disease (a genetically inherited macular degeneration which happens at young age), depression and dependent personnality disorder - another one who is a mythomaniac - one has rejected her diagnosis as schizophrenia and the only one I found pretty normal actually display the same characteristics as I do except that she succeeds in appearing less abnormal by forcing herself to do things and lying...

The one who has Stargadt disease went to a special schools for blind people during two years and she hated it. She did not think she belonged there and she never made friends. She was rejected, though not violently. I think that's probably because her mental disorders made her too different from them so she was still not in the norm.

I've learned that the teachers were "normal people" though they were knew about her depression and disease, apparently everyone tended to think they did not behave properly.

Yet, they went through the same things as you did in a normal school.

I still see how you could have found positive aspects of a normal education, especially intellectually, but socially it's not better.