Trying to be cool but ending up a fool

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Have you ever, in an attempt to impress someone or shake the goody-goody image that people associated you with, did something that backfired on you and caused you more pain?

It happened to me many times, but I remember one time in particular when I and some other kids from the neighborhood were playing around. All of a sudden I had to go #2. I thought about running home to my house to do my business and coming back, but instead, I had this crazy idea. People liked other people who were "bad boys" and who weren't afraid to do crazy things, and I wanted these kids to appreciate me more and think that I was a badass for once instead of a goody-two-shoes. So with this in mind, I dropped my pants, squat down, and defecated on the grass out in the open. I thought the others would be laughing their asses off with hysteria, but instead they were disgusted and repulsed. A local neighborhood guy started yelling at me and threatened to kick my ass if he ever saw me do that again. Looking back on it today I realize that it was really a stupid thing to do and that the guy had every right to react the way he did. I remembered feeling really helpless afterwards, like I couldn't do anything right, that I was going to be this boring, humorless nerd for the rest of my life.

I'd like to hear some of your stories, if any?

Same thoughts as you, so as a kid I once expressed my disdain for the poor quality trampoline we were on with a new curse word, which didn't get the result I expected. On reflecting now, I think it might have been because the family who owned it was poor, and it was considered rude but somehow saying similar things about other things is considered okay.

There have been also multiple situations of getting in trouble in school as a kid, but now I think I was just being laughed at instead of causing people to laugh. Whatever, I outgrew trying to act cool rather quickly.

I thought that it would be grown-up, to be a punk rocker, with spiked hair, and a bad attitude. Well, last year, on Canada Day, I've flashed the English sign, for F--- Off, to a bunch of teens, who were in the park, and sneered, "Take that, Mainstream Society!" The friend that I've lost, in April, walked off on me, very quickly. That's when I decided, that I'd better grow up, and get myself back, on the right path.

I tried that and ended up having a load of crap afterward and didn't go so well with friends.

All I could really attract was friends who are not real and could use me as an advantage, its only when I started acting myself, I started getting more genuine friends although the history from my old friends would affect the way I would see new ones to see if it would be a repeated episode like I had in the past?

So all I can say is be happy with yourself and be yourself, don't try to be anyone just to impress somebody, because that would cause so much distress and that won't go so well in the end.