The pain behind the smile

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The pain behind the smile - for those of us on the spectrum I feel this you tube is a breath of fresh air, for those not on the spectrum a great insight. And this makes me wonder how long would most non spectrum individuals last playing the part of someone with aspergers, even without the co-morbid's, but many of us on the spectrum have to do this every day or retreat!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IFxWdpuy ... re=channel

I liked the vid.

I seriously don't know how people do it. I can be myself most of the time because I have good friends, my cats LOVE me, I'm usually honest online and I don't go out in the big bad world an awful lot. I am on disability. When I go out, usually I'm not socially drained if that makes sense. And I always let some of my weirdness seep through, I'd hate myself if I didn't. I just try to act appropriatish. Even when I visited some people and actually was 90 % me and that was quite brave, I got this horrid feeling afterwards I had let myself down.

No way I could meet people on a daily basis and try to act like I was totally normal. Sometimes it is kind of needed to try to act normal, but sometimes people are too harsh on themselves and they can act a little more like themselves and that is OK too. I guess it depends. I have gotten surprises both ways.

Thanks for sharing this, asplanet.

Loved the videos I subscribed to her she's AWESOME!

Thanks for the video. It came at the perfect time. I was just having a discussion with a friend who insists I dont have AS. ( I have a diagnosis from two seperate doctors). I tried to tell him that its just years and years of pretending. My work puts me around people and it exaust me. Every facial expression, tone of voice, guesture I make requires a conscience thought. What other people "just do" I have to think about. I appear "almost" normal.

I just watched this again, so emotional, so powerful... its like someone really gets it and its out their, so often I feel like I am banging my head against a brick wall, because she is so right, people who have not lived with such a difference have no clue what its really like.