MuayThaiKid wrote:
To: Apple in my eye
Do you ever relate to the anton/eugene type character in your life?
I sure do, I have to fake smiling,laughter,eye contact and interest. must be decent at it because I have friends, but when i don't do those things, its like people think im mentally ret*d or something.
Sure. His compensations seemed more in realm of keeping his story straight rather than interactive stuff, but yeah. If you do it (the 'faking') the world pats you on the back. But the second you let up or slip up, the world drops the hammer. Quite exhausting, and a real mind-f*** after a while.
I'm hoping the younger generations have that at least somewhat better. People need acceptance for who they are. OTOH, the 'faking' skills are important for survival. I think part of what messed me up is I didn't know why the real me seemed so hated (this was before Asperger's existed). I decided I must have an ugly soul or something.
I don't know if the self-advocates are going to change the world soon, but there sure needs to be more understanding about ASD's.