If you're talking about severe Autism, I can kind of understand you're not wanting to be so aware, but that requires presuming severe Autistics aren't aware. Consider that they have a much stronger tendency to act up in ways that can be dangerous to themselves and others, in reaction to things they can't seem to control. A lot of them can't speak up for themselves to it is presumed that's a big part of the reason they act up as they do. That acting up, to me, indicates they are far more aware than we might think.
Maybe they are as aware as we are of things about this world they don't like, but can't do as much about it.
I certainly wouldn't envy that. At least I can articulate what I don't like. It might not make a lot of sense to people who don't understand Autism, but it's a heck of a lot better than trying to get your point across with no voice, or little ability to express yourself.
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I'm not likely to be around much longer. As before when I first signed up here years ago, I'm finding that after a long hiatus, and after only a few days back on here, I'm spending way too much time here again already. So I'm requesting my account be locked, banned or whatever. It's just time. Until then, well, I dunno...