My Mum was feeling a bit down this evening, so to cheer her up I decided to play one of er favourite games called "Upwards". It it a word game and as she is basically a walking dictionary, she loves games like this. I tend to hold my own by adding single letters designed to boost my score to keep up with her.
Anyway, I was finding the thinking involved was sending me close to partial shutdowns. Ok, today I have been rather stressed. It has not been a more then average day as stress goes, but I was soo worked up and stressed yesterday and I've had weeks of non stop buildup of stress where the main break has been to type in here, that today, I've not been able to deal with it as I have not really relaxed much until now. So the thinking that needed doing for the game of Upwards meany I was hitting partial shutdown... Which is great.
Umm... Why great? Am I crazy? No, I'm not crazy. I have been wanting some logical reason to know if it is my mind that is causing these events, or is it my body that is doing it. And now I habe proof that it HAS to be my mind. This means that I know what I am working with. It has taken me some 40 odd years to reach this conclusion. I am not thick or stupid. It is more that for years I had assumed the doctor was right all those years ago saying that it is some sort of allergy... Years of eliminating things or altering diets etc... It never worked.
At long last I have found the link. It has to be my mind and it has to be partial and the occasional full (Though I believe to not last long) shutdowns.
Lately I have been on the fringes of partial shutdowns during a few board games which my brother and his wife and my Mum have been playing and I have joined in. It explains things. While I habe been soo stressed out recently... It effects my mind. It makes sense now!
I think I am right? Or am I jumping to the wrong conclusions?
13 Aug 2019, 5:15 pm
