Memory Erasing

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If you could erase ASpergers from ur memory, as in knowing the concept, would u?

If I could erase some people from my memory I would, but they keep coming back

You mean, if I could give up a support system of people who get it, would I? You mean, if I could still be abnormal but not know why or how I should act, would I? You mean, would I rather be in the position that has led many to be committed, to burn out, even to suicide?

No thanks. I'll stick with understanding myself.

Before I knew that I had AS, I felt like I was bashing my head against a brick wall trying to get my brain to cooperate. Now I know how to work with my brain.
I wouldn't give up the knowledge.

Agreed - I need the knowledge to be able to function in a world where I don't blend in.

Yes. What the Dandelion say.

That's exactly what I was going to say, but you beat me to it.

I'm so used to my differences, that I wouldn't live through one day, if they were taken away from me.

I have five BIG world view revolutions:

1. I am viewed as DIFFERENT - about 1954

2. Other people really DO think differently - about 1964

3. There are people who are not alien - about 1975

4. This is not all there is - about 1986

5. There is a reason and a pattern to 1 and 2 - about 2009.

The period seems to be 10 or 11 years. I cannot think of an event around 1997 - but why would I want to go back and cut out any of them, except PERHAPS the first?

Asperger's as a concept is simply an abstraction - a way of defining something in order to communicate it with others. Erasing that from your memory would not change what it is that it is defining. The brain is what it is. Don't call it Asperger's. Call it The Mifflewurtz Conundrum. Call it nothing at all. It won't change one whit the underlying neurology of the autistic mind.

Not on your life.

Knowledge is power. Ignorance is NOT bliss.

Erasing the knowledge I now have would do nothing but put me right back in the place I was before I understood anything that explains almost everything that has consistently gone awry in my life.

Why on earth would I want to go back to that ignorant state?

I am MUCH better off now that I know what I know.

What good would that do anyone?

Absolutely not. I wish I'd known what it was all along. After having a completely miserable childhood, adolescence, and early adulthood, and after seeing unprofessional, incompetent, podunk psychiatrists for nearly a decade (and getting filled with countless combinations of excessive anti-depressants and anti-psychotics that made my health, both mental and physical, worse), I finally got some relief when I was officially diagnosed for Asperger's. I finally understood what I've been affected by my whole life and started figuring out better ways to cope. If I'd never found out what I'm affected by and why I have the difficulties I have, I probably would've ended up jumping in front of a train.

Memory eraser:

Similar with me. I was shunned and yelled at and led to believe that all of things about myself that I could not control were my own fault and that people deserved to treat me as less of a human being as a result. The guilt got to me so much that several suicide attempts were made in the process and throughout high school I was warped of all self esteem. Now I see that the people who blamed me...the people who called themselves my friends in fact abusing me and taking advantage of me when it was clear that I was not like other people and that I may have some sort of condition. I had a missed chance for a possible AS diagnosis before high school if my dad hadnt been so stubborn about me getting counseling and forbade me from getting it. I could've entered high school a happier and much more confident person if I had known about my AS before then.

In fact I would probably be dead from suicide a billion times by now if I have never gotten my diagnosis.

The first step in dealing with a problem is knowing it exists. The second is finding out as much information as possible about it. Before my diagnosis, I thought I was just an underachiever who was simply enabled too much by my mother and later by my wife. I thought I was lazy and selfish and resented myself for it. After I was diagnosed, it was like I was handed an awesome tool kit for self repair.. I know exactly what my problem is now and although a perfect fix is not possible, I can certainly make myself whatever I want. The knowledge has been the greatest gift I have ever received and I would never give it up!

"Knowledge is power" I am now empowered to succeed instead of enabled to fail!