that's not all aspie, thats more comorbidity.
Being aspie has its enormous challanges in this world and we all need to learn to live with our oddness, but before we get to the point of self-acceptance we all feel like a freak and act like a freak. But thats not aspie. Thats aspie AND a low selfesteem, aspie AND a low selfcontrol, aspie AND childhood issues. You're young. You can work on all the characteristics of that list and be a completely different person in 5 years time. And you'll be awesome because you're still aspie. Alot of your oddities will become your strengths.
Its all in the selfacceptance really, but thats also the hardest part I found my quest for selfacceptance very challenging but also very rewarding. Keep your head up, you still have 60 years to live, learn and become perfect