just diagnosed aspie after long time, u think its correct?

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I'm a 28 year old virgin and every time I try to keep a friend or a girl or something they notice something odd about me and leave. I can't start or hold a conversation.

Like when I talk to these people it seems like they have lives and goals and interests and for me I feel like i'm still in this expiramental stage that I haven't gotten past. I can't think of a single thing i'd like to do with my life, I can't carry a conversation at all, i'm not working or feel like i'm close to even getting a job, i've done all kinds of weird things in the past that have not only gotten me ditched but gotten me called "stressful" and "creepy". I've even been detached with my friends, like I just space out when I was with them and I would freak out about it with them and they just stopped talking to me after a while. And I just see people looking at this blank expression on my face when they talk to me that just proves I can't even fake interest, like i'm that detached that I can't even do that.

And what makes me feel worse is that I know i've been different ever since I was like 10. I've told you this before. Everybody else in junior high and high school was kinda coming into their own, some were like emo kids, some played sports, did that whole theater thing, did drugs, were having sex, looking for some kind of clique to be apart of. They knew they wanted to experience and look for things outside themselves, even if they had a small group of friends, they knew that something had to be done. With me, I never even thought about any of this stuff. Never even knew most of it was going on at the time cause I was in such a huge daze. And that's kinda lifted a little bit now but it feels like i'm still getting that from time to time, like i'll be driving and unknowingly find out i'm driving down a one-way street or i'll be really confident going to a bar to meet people but then when I get there I don't know what to do so I just zone out. And all the rest of the time its like I feel like i'm missing some really essential pieces in my life, like just goals and interests and past experiences that shaped me that I never did because I really don't know what i'm all about.

Just diagnosed aspie after long time, u think its correct? - Keywords: Executive Function - Google the term, executive function, and how it is looked at from the aspect of learning disabilities. Also, a new area which is being slowly looked at is the idea of subtle side-effects from sports concussions/mild brain injuries/car crashes and so on which can affect the normal process of goal setting and reaching goals.