I feel like a 12 year old.

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- Going on ebay and bidding and winning Tom Brady football cards excites me.

- I'm stressed out by any work whatsoever...which doesn't even have to be actual "work"...it feels like work even going to a sporting event and sitting in the same spot for 3 hours or sitting or standing still for a long period of time in general.

- When people tell me directions, I need to hear them at least 3 or 4 times and even then I might not understand.

- I feel corrupted by my hormones...almost like there's a demon inside of me that I can't get rid of.

- I hold on to romantic fantasies, like making out on a windy day with the moon above...or being with the woman of my dreams in some Zelda, Ocarina Of Time like environment.

- Sex scares me and also doesn't interest me (unless my hormones are out of control and wanting my body to reproduce.)

- I seem to have no concern for the world around me. No interest in politics or stocks or bonds or career or anything like that. Cars don't interest me and never have (unless we're talking about the band.)

- I'm no smarter (intellectually speaking) than I was when I was 14.

- The only reason I even leave the house is if I'm going out to eat with a good friend or my family, or visiting a family member, or going to the local Elks Club with my dad and uncles for a couple hours, or to go to the mall...which leads to...

- Going to the mall is like a religious experience for me...browsing...people watching. When I was dating my ex and we'd go to the mall, I liked the fact that I was the well-dressed guy with a pretty woman that I loved around my arms and that we were the "cute couple" that people gawk at.

Almost sounds like me.

I'd rather play with my Legos and Hotwheels
than go on dates and watch news and stuph
like that.

I don't get growedup stuff I say let someone else do it.

When my brother took me to the
park, I played in the snow today.

Now that was a good day.

Lol, I can relate, I feel like a 12 year old underneath my exterior aswell. Funny how something like that happens, it'd take hours to explain the complex neuroscience behind such a situation. To sumarise it "Everybody wants to be 12 again... Why not try?" XD.

Ha, I feel like I'm no age at all - sort of like an eternally young race, wise through the experience of ages.

I *like* doing certain 'childish' things. If I have to lose the fun to become fully an adult, then you can stuff your adulthood into the same fantasy you all share - I refuse to stick my head into your pervasive LARP called 'real life'. At the same time, I don't follow an idealised view of the world (though I have one) and am interested in news, politics etc. Think of... Artemis Fowl?

I have felt like this most of my life too.

Talking hormones/brain chemicals I think that it might ( in my case at least ) have something to do with the fact that, according to a large and very recent study ( April 2010 ), a subset ( 36.7%/over a third ) of people on the autism spectrum have unusually permeable intestines, ( compared to only 4.8% of the general population ), which allows the passage of unusually large amounts of the food opioid peptides, ( in wheat and other glutenous cereals, and casein/dairy ), ... and that opioids/opiates in general have a devastating ( suppressant ) effect on the dopamine system, ( an effect which will get worse with age unless exclude food opioids and other opiate-stimulating/providing substances and habits ), because dopamine is what enables us to realistically imagine and think constructively about the future, to really care about it, to tolerate short-term stress/effort/unpleasantness in order to achieve long-term goals, to organise and sustain the sort of small daily but dull tasks/work which most solid larger achievements almost always require, as well as to learn from our mistakes ( and not just from short-term rewards ) ... to "grow up" in a way.

It's interesting that you should pick on age 12, because apparently that is exactly the age at which dopamine pathways change in the general population from causing people to learn almost exclusively from rewards/good consequences to mainly learning from their mistakes.

I have felt less like a child since I began excluding gluten, and particularly since went completely and consistently gf three years ago, and even more since cutting out dairy too. ( Autscape presentation on diet and mental health last year, NaNoWriMo/50,000 words in one month this autumn, I think I may be cracking the "small daily grind required for longer-term and larger goals" thing! :lol )
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I don't know that I feel like a 12 year old in the ways that the OP describes, but I do feel like a 12 year old emotionally. I can't cope with garden-variety meanness and callousness, and I break down and can't get past it when it happens.

I'd say more like 14. I don't have all the same specific things mentioned but I know what you mean.

I would love to see a research project [using truth serum] to see - I think more "adults" than we have any idea are really youngsters too socialized to admit it even to themselves.

You get good at passing.