A redundent "I think I have Aspergers" post, sorry

Post Reply New Topic

I don't want to get into the details right now, but a few days ago I was looking stuff up of wiki and found my way back to the disgraphia page. Dysgraphia has been in the back of my mind for a few years and I'm as positive that I have it as I can get without being diagnosed. I don't quite remember the order, but I found a link to speech disorder and Aspergers. I make up words, verb nouns and etc., but I was thinking "oh, this is just me self-diagnosing because of the comments I got about the weird way I speak earlier today. It's nothing."

When I was looking through the Aspergers page I was looking for a diagnosis. I was just idley scrolling, but as I was reading thing were very familiar. I never give eye-contact, I’ve had social problems all of my life, there have been numerous incidents of me not reacting the way I was supposed to (I didn’t have any outward reaction), I’ve always been seen as obsessive by others and by myself, I either don’t use gestures or I overuse then (I’m aware and self conscious of this), and the list goes on. When I got to the section on diagnosis, I more than qualified. It was like there was this click in my brain. It was an explanation of me. For example, since I haven’t been able to break the habit of turning on a lamp, shutting my close door, turning off my room’s light, getting into bed, and then turning off the light. It’s this weirs thing that I can’t sleep without even though there is no logical explanation.

Today I found this website and looked for more information. I found a link to a quiz and my score was high. It said that I very likely had Aspergers. My score for Aspergers was about 135 out of 200 and 55 out of 200 for normal or whatever they called it. I didn't think I would qualify. I thought I was being paranoid, but as I was doing the test, the first section was unbelievably difficult for me. I just couldn't figure out the answers and started thinking of my paranoia as denial.

I don't know what I should do. I've lived like this for almost 18 years and I've had some problems, but I'm good right now. I'm in the midst of working through some serious issues and.... My question is SHOULD I get diagnosed. Is there any real reason for a diagnoses? I mean, this is the way I am and it's not going to change.

I don't even know if I should talk to people about this. I want to tell my mom that I think that I might have Aspergers, but I'm afraid she won't listen, won't believe me, or even that she will believe me. If she believes me than this becomes a reality.

I just don't know who to talk to or what to do. As you can see, I'm a little conflicted. I need to express myself. Sorry for the overabundance of words, bad grammar, and typos.

desultory

If you feel that Aspergers related problems like being sad because you don't have friends, or being too anxious to go out and do things is interfering with your life and getting things done, then you need to seek help. I found a therapist who specialises in Cognitive Behaviour Therapy has helped me a lot. When I do what she recommends anyway .

But if you're right for now, you possibly don't need to tell anyone or even get diagnosed. But what you know now, can help you teach other people what is normal for you and what works well for you. I say things like "don't make me guess, be specific and detailed" - I'll never get it otherwise.

You can tell other people that certain routines are very important to you and you get upset if you can't follow them. They will probably still think you are strange but at least they will know why you react the way you do.

If people expect you to react a certain way, you can tell them that everyone is a bit different and you prefer to be more private with your emotions.

I don't tell people I have aspergers, I just address particular issues as they come up. The stuff I've learned about aspergers, helps me do this.

When you say you couldn't figure out the first section - is that the dots section? This might mean that you are more verbally / words orientated than visually / pictures orientated. There are two subcategories of Aspergers "Asperger Verbaliser" and "Asperger Visualizer". If you are a Verbaliser - maybe it means that you understand things better when someone tells you or writes it down (despite the creative spelling and grammar). Maybe if you were more a Visualiser - you'd prefer to see something done, or have someone show you how to do it and role plays would help you. These categories are new (as best I can tell) and they're still learning about the differences and best ways to manage them.

The more you learn about Aspergers now, the more skills you will have for dealing with other people. Since you might be a words person, maybe try for some books. Tony Attwood has a big list of books - some might be available in your local library or (relationship specality) book store. http://www.tonyattwood.com.au

And when you get stuck, you can come in here and ask for advice.

Please delete all my posts.

You sound very similar to how I felt when I first found out about AS, and how I still feel really. I am not sure if I feel like dealing with getting diagnosed, and then im not sure it would do any good anyway. Mostly though I just dont want to have to talk about it with people I dont know...I think thats the main problem for me.

But thats about all I can say