Are you a textbook example of Autism?

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So you know how autism is suppose to be a spectrum, is there something that you have heard or read about autism that does not describe your case?
For example: Literature says that people with Aspergers Sydnrome want friends but cannot make friends thus they are lonely - but me I actually prefer to be alone.

Any good textbook will not present any of the traits of autism as universal. I don't really want a lot of friends. I do want meaningful contact with people.

That I live in my own little world. What if I like the 60s better than the new century. MYOB you NTs. That means Mind Your Own Business.

This.

As for the friends thing, isolation is nice.

oh that reminds me - im also NOT eccentric. i do selectively mute though.

Shame, eccentric people are the best type

my doctor told me when i was very young (about 7) that autism is self-ism at it's core (which is obvious).

i am deeply rooted in the ground of my essence.

if i were profoundly autistic, then i would remain as a gnarled clump of roots growing inside myself, and never break through the ground in which i live and see the light of the day outside.

but i popped up a little feeble stem from my roots into the air of external existence, and i grew a leaf that sat on top of that stem. that leaf absorbed the "sunlight" of external reality that did not come from me, and that leaf nourished me. but that original leaf would have died if it was plucked from my stem, and my stem would have also died.

i decided that the light of reality was good, and i grew a few more leaves that nourished me enough to poke my stem further out into the world.

as my stem grew, i branched out into a wider area of perception, and my stem became a trunk that grew it's own stems in different directions, and those stems all supported leaves i generated that were absorbing energy from the light of the world outside my head.

i became taller and i was reaching for the sky and all that i was sure of contributed matter to my stems and trunk.

the stems growing from my trunk solidified and fortified with my belief in what i saw, and they became branches that themselves sprouted stems that supported their own leaves of even farther removed reality absorption.

after i became fully established as a communicative person, i grew flowers that were expressions of my own appreciation of the world, and people came to smell them.

but the fact remains that my flowers are solidly attached to the stems that are fed by my leaves that are also solidly attached to my branches that are solidly attached to my trunk that is solidly attached to my roots.

i can not move away from where i was planted, and so i will remain where i am. i can grow outward from my origin, but i can not move away from my deeply rooted core.


non autistic people are less like trees than i am.

BS.

Autism is not about my "self". It is, for me at least, always been about the barrier between me at the rest of the world. One of the greatest pains I feel is what my deficits have denied my family in the way of support and comfort.

I am not. I have read that we lack imagination. I have a very strong imagination, and spend much of my time living in a world of my own creation.

I am also quite capable of lying.

News Flash: "There is now some anecdotal evidence that sophisticated humor can be exhibited by these people." WOW! - Sarcasm

wave freak ....if BS is all you can see, then BS is all that will come from your ideas.

And how did you arrive at the conclusion that BS is all that I see?

I don't have many of the traits associated with AS, but I was diagnosed as being on the spectrum. The traits I do have, mainly social problems and meltdowns, have cause me great difficulties, but I have fairly mild sensory issues, for instance.

Oh, I definitely want friends. I just need time to do stuff by myself as well. It is an issue. Doing stuff by myself is infinitely more easier than maintaining friends, so all my life I've invested more into doing stuff yb myself than making friends. But that doesn't mean I don't want any.

For much of my life, i wasn't aware of my loneliness. Now I'm better aware of it, I cope with it better, but it still hurts. Sometimes I just need to lay in bed and cry about feeling so lonely and isolated. I have had friends sporadically throughout my life--in typical Aspie fashion, I often have had one intense friendship at a time. I have been blessed to have had some very unique and stimulating friends, and many fo my past friends, I miss very much. but like a typical Aspie, I can't maintain friends for very long. This is a considerable struggle for me emotionally. I yearn for a partner who is my friend and mindmate, if not my soulmate. I don't desire a gaggle of friends, just one person who I can connect to on that rare level, and know I'm accepted, even if the rest of the world is a stranger to me. And I just am astonished and perpetually saddened at how hard finding that in this world is. Billions of people, and not a single one I can be genuine friends with for more than a short period, at most.

However, at my age, you learn a thing or two, and that is you don't have to be an Aspie to be alone in this world. Lots of lonely people in this world. So in that regard, I'm not so alone after all.

There was a time I felt like a textbook case of Asperger's, but never of autism itself. I don't handflap or rock or stim like that. I didn't have any verbal delays--I'm hyperlexic and just find talking counterintuitive. I don't really have screaming, emotionally violent meltdowns--they are far more internal, and I've actually have had to learn to display my anger and stress outwardly. I still think I'm pretty cut-and-dry Asperger's (a bit on the "gifted" side perhaps), although they keep changing the definitions of Asperger's. I've not change though--I mean, I'm an Aspie afterall, I hate change.

Last edited by Mercurial on 03 Jan 2011, 2:14 pm, edited 1 time in total.

No I am not a textbook case of it.