obsessive compulsive disorder is it a curse or gift

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i say gift cause it drives me to get something done no matter what the cost and i love the feeling of being obsessed with something to the point that it bothers others.
not saying that it's all good it's probably the reason i can't sleep well but i love that drive, the obsession the can't get your mind of it.
though i hate my AS it's like a disease that festers in my brain and destroys my motivation heck i actually did have a plan for my life before i was diagnosed after that i just gave up heck with fighting it anymore. cause how do you fight a mental illness.

My obsessive compulsiveness helps me gain control over my thoughts and feelings. Sometimes though, the counting can become a little excessive, makes me depressed sometimes.

Try to look at your AS as a part of your personality instead of painting everything black. You where coping just fine before you got your diagnosis, so why let your world fall apart now?

look at it this way: now that you are aware of your difficulties and problems, it's easier to work them out. Being diagnosed with Asperger's does not necessarily mean that you have to get help for the rest of your life.

Anyway, I understand what you're going through and I give you my sympathy.

monk says its a gift and a curse

I would say that it is both. While it can be a burden when you are forced to do something repeatedly to get it right, it is also beneficial when it helps you get good marks on assignments for school, or when it helps keep you organised.

to alexa232

maybe your right maybe someday i can cope with this it's hard since i was diagnosed when i was 17 that was 2 years ago.

to alex

you mean that cop guy on tv. i've never watched that show but some commercials for it look funny.

to fiz

true i'm kinda having a bad day right now because my cat was attacked and he has a broken jaw some teeth missing and last i saw him he had blood on his paw. i'll never forget the sound he made either when we brought him in and mom was holding him.
i miss my cat right now.

to spriteling

personaly i like the drive to get things done and get them right although is sometimes the cause of my sleeplessness. it never helped me in class because i couldn't stop thinking of my story. orgainized if you mean my computer yes it is ver organized except for my stuff folder but other then that everything has it's place. as for my room well it's fairly decsent for now after my mom cleaned it up but usually it's a mess.

i dicided to answer everyone on one comment\form message\whatever this note thing is just to make it easier on me.

I"ve had OCD since I was a child and I wouldn't have exactly called it a gift at that time - it really effected the way I interacted and I think significantly contributed to the severe depression I had when I was very young. At that time I was having lots of intrusive images that would interrupt things but I couldn't tell anyone why I would suddenly freak out or be frightened so it was frustrating because I would seem to suddenly change my attitude. However, I can say now as an adult that I am very much more aware of details that other people don't even pay any attention to. That CAN be a good thing.

And I think there is a big difference too between having OCD from as far back as you can remember and those who sudddenly develop it. CBT and medication is supposed to be much more effective if the OCD is limited or a person has not had it for very long. The CBT doesn't really work very well for someone who has had OCD for many years because you have so many different things to work on. I was handwashing seriously for a long time, but even when I went to work on controlling that I started doing other OCD type behaviors so it was just trading one for the other. I have wondered though if sometimes all this stuff balances each other out. I do think there can be a difference though between the enjoyable obsessiveness of AS and the intrusive annoying parts of OCD. It is hard to explain, but I think obessing or focusing about a subject you love falls under AS and the intrusive annoying things more under OCD. At some point though the the line blurs.

i have that images thing too i didn't use it to much when i was younger but now i do alot it's really cool like watching a movie in your head before it was harder to control the images but now i am in complete control.
but i'm not in control so much about things i become obsessed with but as far as i know if it appeals to me i'm going to gain a focus on it.
my main area of focus is characters with yellow eyes.
and even if i try to block that thing or idea out of my head it still eventually takes over like my sudden intrest in character parings or this anime named bastard however that is a more weak one if i find out more i can make it a full time obsession.
so in a way i do have some control.

Im hoping to try out a new medication in the autumn. Its called magic mushrooms. Side-effects are off-the-scale, but thankfully you only need to take it occasionally.

Im not aware of any advantages from having OCD - tbh i dont think anything could ever make up for that nagging sense of dread. Maybe when i get it under control again, it could be chanelled into a project.

"nagging sense of dread" i don't think i get that.

Because of OCD I can't concentrate to one thing, I always think about other things which I don't want to think. I do not understand which of my minds are real and which are dummy. I can't have my opinion because every opinion can be wrong, so I can not take any. Despite this I get some ideas automaticaly just hearing other opinion. Perhaps I think that other have strong proof of their opinion. But sometimes I can avoid it. My memory work miserably, I forget one thing which I wanted to say. Because of lack of concentration trying to read posts of this theme make me fret. So that thing sucks

i just about the complete oppositte my focus is usually on one thing only my memory is't to bad. i have decent consitration but only if it's on something i like.
but i'm sorry it gives you such a hard time though.