- I used to have very little eye contact , but now look at people straight in the eyes through training myself.
It adds for much better social interaction. This is something I've been working on for the last year and a half.
I'm able, most of the time now, to maintain eye contact without causing myself pain AND without psyching the
person I'm looking at ... out. It's a delicate balance that times time and experience to get the knack of.
- Oddly enough I read faces extremely well. Got 97% on the Cambridge Face Memory Test and scored very high on
the "Reading the Mind in the Eyes" Test. I have the innate ability to perceive an emotional state of someone but
I don't intuitively know how to react to it. I scored quite low on the EIQ (emotional intelligence test), which is congruent
with (right word ? lol) how I act in public. I fumble about or don't react at all when someone gives me an snap emotional
stimulus. It's quite unsettling because I feel like I'm being tested all the time and I keep "failing". NT Bastards ! Anyways...
- I pick up tone very well. I seem to have little trouble in this department.
- I DO have several sensory issues. Loud noises startle me. Lots of social and noisy commotion unsettles me, brings
me irrational fear. Though I've worked on this issue and it seems to have gotten better. I stim ALL the time: when I walk in public I have to tap my legs in specific spots, I stim when breathing (certain patterns of breathing calm me down, though are not productive when doing busy work), when home alone I rock back and forth and hum to myself..... this more than any of the others brings me the most sensory satisfaction, I can't explain it, if I were prohibited from rocking and humming I think I would be in dire straights. I guess that's why I like my freedom. I don't like people looking at me and analysing me, maybe I think they'll find me out or just think there's something wrong with me. That's really ridiculous because I really love who I am.
- I truly enjoy math, not an expert or anything, I just enjoy thinking about and playing with math.
I enjoy math more than arithmetic. What really annoys me is that people refer to arithmetic as math, and it's NOT ! !
Sometimes I feel that I should be a math genius like Euler or John Nash but in reality I'm probably as good as the
average undergrad math major. I need to keep detaching from the stereotypes in my mind and just be who nature
intended me to be.
- I love to be around people. Thing is they don't always love to be around me. If I don't watch myself I tend come off as
pendantic or arrogant. When I first realized I was perceived as acting this way towards people I was kind of hurt inside,
because I'm not trying to hurt people when I talk to them. Also I didn't believe them when they told me I was acting arrogant.
I don't know how much this has to do with my pdd, maybe I absorbed this behaviour from my dad (a successful doctor) when I was younger.
- I DO enjoy reading science related articles. I used to drive to my local barnes and nobles every weekend when I was in
high school to read the latest issue of Discover, and others.
- I have noticed that I do like to criticize people and make caricatures of them based on their glaring faults.
But I mostly keep this to myself, for amusement. I know this is not a socially acceptable behaviour, which is why
I try to keep it under wraps.
I know I was supposed to list autistic traits I DON'T have, but I couldn't think of any obvious examples off the top of my
head. Bad short term memory, that an autistic trait ? I also have extreme difficulty remembering information that I need to
memorize but have no interest in. Like work related information. I found it difficult to memorize the names of the months (gregorian calender) , I finally memorized them when I was 22yo, boy was that a chore ! lol