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Hi,

I'm new to this forum and see it a safe place to talk about myslef, without feeling a feek, so here goes

As a child I always hated going to play with other kids and found parties to much and would just scream and cry when my mother tried to leave me. I did the same thing when i started school from til the age of about 8. In fact right the way trough school I had a bad attendeance record as every month or so I would be off sick for a week. I always told people I was ill but in reality I just could cope and needed a break.

I have never had many friends my own age and shyed away from relationships until I was 30 and I just didn't feel ready and was frightened if someone liked me as I didn't know how to handle it.

My biggest problem is rules, I stick ridedly to them and get upset if others do not. I can't understand why some of the rules I was told to obey as a child, don't apply now and this causes me a lot of problems.

I also get very upset when people are rude, or brush me off, even though I am told they don't mean it.

Have never been diagonosed any kind of antism, but definatly feel like i'm on the wrong planet sometimes!

Thanks for listneing.

Does anyone else feel/fealt like me or am I just mad?

You don't seem mad and the challenges you have faced sound remarkably similiar to many you'll find here. This is a good place to learn more about yourself and hopefully provide some light at the end of the tunnel.

Welcome!

Thank you

I definaly find alot of confort in routine. I also suffer from very high anexiety level as I'm very afraid of doing something wrong.
However I am now 35, could I have got this far without a diganoses?

Well you're female, that's one reason, unless you had really bad behavior problems, and then there's the high risk of completely wrong dx. Not to sound sexist. Screening for females is a bit harder than screening for males. It's less obvious somehow. Second, you're 35, which means you were around for a while before the Asperger's DX.

Welcome!

I'm 42 and while I'm fairly certain I'm an Aspie I'm not diagnosed. We are what is considered the 'lost generation' in Asperger's. The psychological community is just now trying to catch up to us and, from what I've seen, not doing such a great job of it yet. You're not alone! You'll find plenty of 'Aspie's of age' on this forum.

It drives me insane when people don't follow the rules.

I still hold a grudge about stuff that happened in elementary school where I felt rules had been violated and I'm 40.

In elementary school I was not very athletic or coordinated. We had this time in the spring every year called field day. It was a series of competitions. relay races, 100 yard dash and stuff like that. Basically I lost at everything. I was in second grade and I was in the competition to see who could throw a Frisbee the furthest.


I won but the second place guy was a kid who had been afflicted with Thalidomide. He had very short arms. I have to say he threw that Frisbee pretty far for someone that all but lacked arms. We had to stand by our Frisbees and as we walked out the teacher kicked this kids Frisbee past mine and looked over at me and said, "He deserves to win because he is handicapped." I am surprised I did not flip out but I didn't, however to this day I hate the idea of unfairness. It doesn't matter to me that he was handicapped "I" won and that was the only time I had won anything for being athletic and it was taken away from me. Rules breakers suck.

To right!

It really distresses me. Like there is a rule that no personal emails are meant to be sent at a place I used to work at. I only ever sent work related stuff but loads didn't and it used to really anoyed and distress me.

It's funny isn't it... the things we remember. I remember a teacher in 2nd grade telling me to follow her, and we walked through another class. She said, "Excuse US." And I didn't understand what I had done that required excusing. That was 60 years ago.

Yeah I still get upset and angery about various unfairnesses that happend in my childhood over 20 years ago now.

As you know, I'm new here so would like to ask something, what is a n/t?

Welcome to WP

NT or neurotypical is a term that is used as either non-autistic or someone with a typically functioning nervous system (although I'm 99% certain that even by this definition, paraplegics and quadraplegics are not included) .

Oh right thanks

Its been so great to just talk about some of my issues and have people who understand

Thanks. Its now 10.30pm in England so I will be signing off. Will definatley be back tommorrow thou.

A lot of us had those kinds of problems growing up. You should find plenty of understanding here.