My handwriting is sloppy, childlike and only semi-legible. I pretty much write everything in print, only using cursive when I sign my name, or if I'm filling something out which specifies that I should "write, not print."
Starting at some point during third grade, they started requiring that everyone write in cursive, but my teachers each year made an exception for me. My printing was horribly sloppy, and my cursive was ten times worse.
I recall this one time when I was in Junior High, they allowed us to do free play in gym class for some reason (I can't remember why). The special education students were integrated into that gym class with us. In spite of the fact that I was in general education (honors, actually. Don't ask me to explain how I ended up on that track, as I don't understand it myself) the special education girls were the only ones who seemed genuinely interested in talking to me.
At one point, one of the special education girls started flipping through my notebook and looking through the pages of notes I had written for my classes. Seeming honestly curious, she asked me, "You ret*d?"
"No," I replied.
"Handicapped?" she asked.
"No," I repeated.
The girl appeared to be puzzled by this. "Then why do you write like that?" She pointed at a page of my illegible handwriting.
"I just have bad handwriting," I told her, not knowing what else to say. Thankfully, she accepted this response.
Growing up, I had plenty of similar experiences, with people exclaiming over just how bad my handwriting is. My teachers used to refer to figuring out how to read my handwriting as "cracking the code."
When I was fourteen, I finally hit puberty, and there was a significant improvement in my handwriting. Even so, my handwriting is still very poor. It's more legible than it was, but the formation of my letters still tends to be sloppy. If someone is reading something I've written, I still occasionally get asked about one word or another that he/ she can;t quite decode.
So, yes, I can very much relate to having messy handwriting.
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