I have been a post-graduate student for ten years but I have never managed to find me a topic that felt good enough to work with. Now I should select whether to try to continue studies or to do some work. But like always, I feel that I do not know how to make such choices.
In addition that I cannot decide about my job, I am also interested in some sort of activism in the civil society organizations (tasks that resemble researching) but I have not managed to find a topic for this project either. I am interested in politics but I have not been able to decide in which topic to concentrate on.
I feel like I have to go around this "what I am supposed to do" -consideration over again almost every day even though I have thought yesterday that I came to some conclusion. I wonder how this circle could be broken. I have been like this all my adult age since the late years of the high school, that is more than 15 years.
Sometimes I have managed to make some choices but I soon start to doubt them again. Now when I have learned that any choice I make starts to feel wrong sooner or later, this may have made it just more difficult to come up with any decision.
I wonder if there are any success stories somewhere about autism spectrum people with similar issues. What other sort of help I might get?
13 Jan 2016, 2:55 pm
