because my ture nature is to be uncocaible and not talk or vaocal. All my socailising and speech is fake. Its all preplanned using speech and phrases I heard from other people or on TV. Or its just put together uncohesivley in a panic.
I find when I am tlaking to other people or see other people tlaking. I look at their lips moving and thinking how they are moving their lips and putting words together. And thinking do they know how they are puttign words together and what they are saying is is natural.
when my lips move to speak its not real its all fake and forced.
I cant stop valuating people as I have no real social interest so I just evaluate. I evaluate all their words and speech and what they say.
I then go home and think about that person etc...and how they are and other things etc..
People might do the same for me. But Im fake anyway I can change on a daily basis and I try to keep my words and conversation limited so they dont know too much.
30 May 2011, 10:51 am
