Yes i lost it!! ! I want to be normle!

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I cant understand half the stuff that's written to me and it makes it worse when people talk to me and i cant prossess anything there saying for about five minuts witch makes me looks stupid!
And im so shy no words can come out and when they do they f**k up and i dont understand why this happends! And some emotions i have a hard time with understanding. And im childish to other people and because im childish know one seems to treat me like the age i am and i hate that! and because i cant word stuff good when wirghting my spellings made fun of or people do not take me seriusly when i type what i believe or what i have seen with my own eyes. even if all this dosent happen here it has somewhere! I cant take it anymore i understand i cant change myself but why do i have to be so frekin DIFFERENT?! People say what is normle? normles when you can do all the stuff i cant and can be a teenger like others or an adult like others your ages. something i frekin dream of!
Why does it have to be me? or us? i dont get it...i feel like im cursed.

I feel the same. I especially felt like that when I was 17. Sometimes I just think to myself, 'why do I have to be different?' and it gets me really wound up. A lot of people with AS don't understand this point of view and think AS is a good thing, but I am stuck in a care home, unable to express myself and I have severe auditory processing difficulties so I don't think it is a good thing.

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I have HFA, ADHD, OCD & Tourette syndrome. I love animals, especially my bunnies and hamster. I skate in a roller derby team (but I'll try not to bite )