kahlua wrote:
My horse is my therapy. Stress relief and just having some time away from people.
Riding not so much, its hard to find a good instructor that understands that I have severe anxiety. I care so much more for animals than I do people. My horse gets everything he needs, yet I put off doing stuff for myself, like hair cuts, clothes, shoes etc. I tried not having a horse for a while recently, as I had a fall and my instructor was bullying me. After going through really bad depression, I found myself wanting a horse again.
I have trouble with my dressage instructor too. She is a great trainer, but also does not understand my anxiety...plus I am very awkward with my body when around others and often don't understand how to apply what she is asking to my riding. I am still a capable rider, just not to the point where I am comfortable competing. I showed a lot when I was younger and it was agony. Now I will only show my Welsh ponies on the line. Having me and my beloved ponies judged goes beyond my comfort level but is necessary to make a name for myself as a pony breeder in Va.
I know what you mean about the hair cuts too! Just had my first one this year and my husband and parents won't stop talking about it. My hair before must have been atrocious! I usually keep it up and away from my face since a I can't stand to have my hair touch my skin.
_________________
I wanted to know the name of every stone and flower and insect and bird and beast. I wanted to know where it got its color, where it got its life - but there was no one to tell me.
George Washington Carver