is anyone else not quite sure what made you aspie?

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I'm still not entirely sure why someone i know took me to be diagnosed as an aspie. I don't look people in the eye (although i used to try. since the diagnosis i've taken on a "f**k it" attitude) as it makes it hard for me to think, i'm apparently sensitive to noise and such, and that's about it that i know of.

I wish someone had taken me to be diagnosed when I was younger. But no, my parents never really thought anything of my... shall we say, oddities, because I didn't have problems in school.

I spent my whole life thinking that there was something wrong with me. I knew I was different, but I didn't know why, so it really only caused me confusion. I mean, I suspected that my brain worked differently, but, had I have received confirmation on that, say, 5 years ago, it would have saved me a whole lot of emotional pain and suffering.

Knowing about AS, but not being dx'd has helped me in many ways, although I still wish I could have a definite answer to the question of whether or not I actually have it. Well, let me rephrase that. While I am not a qualified diagnostician, I am absolutely certain that I am an aspie. However, I spent the past 3 months questioning everything I ever thought, said, or did and analyzed it intensely in an attempt to reach that conclusion. Knowing about AS, but not being sure that I had it was really agonizing, and I'm sure that those of us here who are self dx'd would understand that. Just being told that I have it would have been so much easier than trying to find out for myself.

Despite this, I'm glad I don't have an official diagnosis. Based on what I've researched, here in America, a diagnosis can make it difficult to find healthcare, and that's not something I want to have to deal with. Not to mention that to get a diagnosis now, I would have to drive about 2-3 hours (4-6 round trip) and pay a whole lot of money.

that's weird. i never knew anything was wrong until that day someone pointed it out. i thought i was just some as*hole that people like to yell at.

I always had trouble understanding the way other people think. "Why do they have such ideas?" I've always thought.