ASPartOfMe wrote:
Dr. Tony Attwood is a good source for these things.
I am I guess the "wise elder" Dr. Attwood spoke of. What has helped is I recognized a pattern. On a fairly consistent basis my worst fears have not come true.
The biggest problem I had about self diagnosing myself with ASD is I didn't remember having difficulties as a child but since watching that video I realized I catastrophized a lot as a child which led to extreme reactions , as a 10 year old I pulled a knife on my stepfather as I feared for mum's life in a domestic they were having ( I think I was ready to stab him to help my mum), I also attempted suicide after getting into trouble with the police as I thought I was going to prison ( theft of an empty video tape box
). I still catastrophise today which can escalate in my darkest periods and always leads to suicidal ideation.
The weird thing about my suicidal ideation is most of the time I find it comforting like it's an old friend but at the same time find it distressing ( I realize that might not make sense
)
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