Anyone else wi diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder?

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I was diagnosed with BPD four years ago. I've never contested the diagnosis but I do feel it's only part of the picture. I really think that my BPD symptoms have developed largely in response to my experiences of being Aspie in an NT world. I'd be interested to hear from anyone similar.

nobody else.

Well, I had a girlfriend, who's stupid mum "diagnosed" me with borderline, before I even got my AS diagnosis. There are some similarities between some forms of borderline and AS.

i would respond, but i need to know what a bpd is first.
i act odd in response to mty aspines im sure
but i dnt hink i have bpd.
what is it?

I know a girl that really needs that dx.

I went into CD treatment about 15 years ago.(sober ever since)The Psyc I saw said that he was "reluctantly" giving me a BPD label.He said he had to write something down for me to get the services I needed and that was the closest thing he could find even though he didnt really think it fit.I thought that was pretty honest of him?This was in 1990...there was no awareness of AS and it couldnt be used,as it wasnt listed in the manuel at that time.I can understand why that "label" sort of fit me...I did self-harm(cutting)suicide attempts(hospitalized twice)was permiscious(but only when really drunk)
I was very "clingy" in my relationships(but I lost all my bio family at 2 and was in fostercare for 3 years...so had low self-esteem and abandonment fears)I was very Anti-authority(this was because many "authority figures" were hypocrites and illogical...and often not very "bright")My "obsessions were barely adresses or labeled "escapist"...no questions about social anxiety or in ability to make friends...no questions of my sensory issues or inability to spell inspite of being an avid reader...I was told that I was a "black and white" thinker...Was to much "in my head" and not in touch with my emotions"...My facial expressions did not accurately reflect the events I was describing(smiling when describing painful experiences...which was really because I find humore in the irony and absurdity of humans).....They tried very hard to convince me that I had been sexually abused and was repressing it(that was all the rage at the time in the psyc field)...it was very frustrating....Alot of the BPD behavior "magically disappeared "when I stopped drinking...Stopped cutting,promiscuity,thrill seeking(which was an attempt to get out of my head,stop the constant analyzing of everything)...


Point being...there is some overlap in possible "symptoms"...but I think a very different cause of those symptoms...it is an interesting aspect of the so called "science" of psychology...you tend to find only what you are looking for and if it cant be shaped to fit the box...you hammer it into place...argggg
I appeared to be a "social person" because I had been drinking from 16-26...no one questioned why I had no friends prior to this and no one questioned my increasing social anxiety,social avoidance after I quit drinking...other then to say it was because I needed to relearn the skills I had not developed while drinking....tried that....it was a no go...Now I dont force myself to fit into their box of "mentally healthy" and I am no longer depressed...wow....imagine that...

I have never been diagnosed with this (I have been diagnosed with depression (even though I wasn't that depressed, go figure), schizophrenia , and depersonalization disorder (not a bad fit)). But looking at the criteria, here is what does and does not fit me:

1. frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment. On occasion, very much so, but it's not the norm.

2. a pattern of unstable and intense interpersonal relationships characterized by alternating between extremes of idealization and devaluation. No. When I respect, love, and admire someone, it stays the same unless something very extreme happens.

3. identity disturbance: markedly and persistently unstable self-image or sense of self. I'm not sure what this means exactly, but I don't think so.

4. impulsivity in at least two areas that are potentially self-damaging (e.g., spending, sex, substance abuse, reckless driving, binge eating). Probably yes, on one issue.

5. recurrent suicidal behavior, gestures, or threats, or self-mutilating behavior Ages 12-21, constantly. After age 21 to present, no.

6. affective instability due to a marked reactivity of mood (e.g., intense episodic dysphoria, irritability, or anxiety usually lasting a few hours and only rarely more than a few days). I don't really get this either-- but I don't think so, I tend to be pretty stable (but I wasn't as a teen, I was a serious wreck).

7. chronic feelings of emptiness Not chronic, but I do feel emptiness.

8. inappropriate, intense anger or difficulty controlling anger (e.g., frequent displays of temper, constant anger, recurrent physical fights) I am very emotional but can control my anger most of the time.

9. transient, stress-related paranoid ideation or severe dissociative symptoms I have severe dissociative symptoms (depersonalization and derealization) but they are not transient, they are 24/7.

The DSM diagnoses that best fit me are AS, Depersonalization Disorder, and Schizotypal Personality Disorder.