People just think I'm weird. Seems worse than a disorder?

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i'm not diagnosed and I probably won't for a long time because i don't have an understanding family who will believe me and take me to the dr/i'm not ready to open up to them yet, but i strongly suspect i have asperger's. there's a good possiblity i may be transferring high schools this year (YESSSSSSS) and while i am elated that i might get to be the new kid again and start over in a place where no one knows me or remembers my weird middle school hate the world because i don't get it self, i'm nervous to mess it up. i'm already friends with some kids from the school from a play i did there and those kids are seriously the first friends i feel like i've ever had. the kids at my current school don't like me and i don't like them, or we are merely friendly acquaintances, and the ones who are nice...well i'm pretty sure they think i'm mentally handicapped because i for some reason can't speak to them properly when they're around so i look like a dumb mute haha. however, with new people i've gotten super good at being open and charismatic, i just have trouble getting to know them on a deeper level. so while i have the opportunity to give a good first impression i'm worried that they'll just think i'm weird. see, with the theatre kids, they really seem to like me but they also recognize my "quirkiness". they value it, because, you know, theatre kids do tend to be quirky. i'm not sure how normal people will take it though. plus, it's a huge school, and i've only gone to small schools before (a change i'm glad for, but also a little afraid of the unknown).

So i guess i'm looking for advice. Also, if i were to recieve diagnosis, would it be better to tell my friends or not? i trust them (which is really damn weird for me). My instinct tells me i should tell them, because i want them to understand why i am how i am sometimes (meltdowns, can't handle sensory overload, have very specific pet peeves that make me look like i'm just being a b*tch, strange social patterns, fondness of solitude, that sorta thing). I would rather they understand that i merely function differently than have them think that i'm socially or generally "stupid" or blind to what is normal. I mean i'd probably only tell the closest friends, but still.....and i know it varies for how they might react, but if it's someone i truly trusted i would want them to know, even if it changes how they see me. it only seems right that they know the real me, and decide how they feel about me from there....is that wrong of me to think?

I had an afinity for the theater too when I was in back in school. The stage is easy for us. We Aspies spend our whole lives acting anyway, trying to play the characters we want others to think we are.

What do you want a professional diagnosis for? (That's expensive.) I didn't need to wait for someone to tell me what I was. I figured that out on my own. Sounds like you did too. In fact you sound like an Aspie all over.

Tell your friends if you want to. For me, it didn't make the descrimination go away, it just shifted the context. I get fewer awkward stares and more sighs of pity.
Good friends know where I'm coming from, and treat me like an actual person. Telling them about my AS helped them know me better also.
I've never had someone discriminate against me more after learning that my weirdness is attributed to AS. Just don't use that explanation as a crutch or an excuse (obviously).

I wish I could get a professional diagnosis for my incredibly obvious aspergers, but 99% of "mental health" quacks have absolutely no clue what they are talking about. Hell, I know someone who told me that their therapist said they were schizophrenic because their head rang and their mind got fuzzy when they were taking tests. Honestly, these doctors are jokes.

And you absolutely should not tell them about your aspergers. They will either treat you like a different person, pity you, or bully you.