Jediscraps wrote:
Are you talking about emotional dysregulation? I've come across this in regard to asd.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Emotional_dysregulationI'm not sure this is a stim, I've been told it's perseveration (but I've also read that persevarating is a name for stimming), but I spent a considerable amount of time thinking about, looking up and watching blenders, juicers, dehumidifiers, workout equipment and now lawn equipment. It's often like spinning my wheels because it's hard to go from idea to doing. Looking at it now, it looks like da, da, da, da, da, da, da, da, but it's calming.
That actually doesn't really sound like me... I mean I did have Psychological trauma in elementary school but... I'm not one to really throw things unless I am really angry at my mom or something. What I'm talking about is when I'm suffering anxiety and depression all at once. Like, I try to watch something to calm myself or fidget with my necklace... which is a stimming object for me... but nothing seems to help. The only thing I usually end up doing is cutting myself or rubbing my nail over my skin until it leaves a sore... and then the emotions go away.
I mean when I'm in these episodes, I pretty much get the hopelessness, despair and pretty much everything else that comes into my mind. I can't think of anything good because its like... there isn't anything good and my emotions become so out of control that I'm laying on my bed wishing I could just die. I used to be sucidal or at least had sucidal tendencies but most of the time its all it usually is.
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Diagnosed with an autistic disorder (Not AS but mild to moderate classic Autism), ADHD, Learning Disability, intellectual disability and severe anxiety (part of the autism); iPad user; written expressionist; emotionally-sensitive