What's my minds purpose?

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So, out of my family I am the only one with AS, I am also the only one thinks different too: Where they are too quick to judge, I look past the surface from a psycological point of view and with Empathy; Where they are Ignorant, I constantly analyze my thoughts and do not speak until I have a decent process down. Examples: With the last Harry Potter movie, what happened to Snape, everyone else was surprised, I was always rooting for him, from the beginning, I was not surprised at all because I looked past all of it, and I Empathized with Snape too; Sitting around the fire, my brother saying everone is stupid and whatnot, the typical thing that my family does, and then I say (while looking him in the eye, trying to give him a hint) "Everyone thinks the same and they eat each other for it.", my sister said it was deep (I just pull that kind of stuff from thin air all the time); Watching movies my family yells at the characters for doing something they wouldn't do (already idiotic), or because something doesn't make sense, they always have to have an opinion, it's like they never f*****g shut up!! Anyways, I save my comments and opinions and focus on empathizing and doing my process and what I immediately figure out on the spot, my family comes back days later going "Oh, that's why" (I'm thinking, if you would've shut up then maybe you could've figured it out sooner) it happens with real people too so just in case you were thinking that I only live in a virtual world then there you go.

I know that that all sounds ignorant to you but look past it, I deal with this crap everyday, it really gets on my nerves why they never grow up, or why they never shut up! Besides my insight skills and patience, my mind trumps there's any day but I still respect them because I couldn't do half the stuff they do everyday but that's because I am AS and I might be the first one to finish my education out of the whole family. They always forget all the stuff that is wrong with me, even that I'm AS, it offends me because I keep an archived list of every individual of my family and I don't forget any of it, same with my house, I know where everything in my house is, everything. I guess NT's minds don't work like that.

The question that has come into my mind is: Why am I the only AS in my family (even my cousins) and why does my mind think totally different than them too? My life's goal is to live alone in a modern house with Video Games and TV's, the usual, and with no human contact, they see it very weird but I don't care, I am straight but I don't care for girls or their bodies, they of course can't fathom that so they reduce to calling me gay, dumbasses. I would like to teach them how to hold their tongue and why it would benefit them but anything I suggest they swat away, everything I say is usless to them but everything I suggest and say is what they come to in the end, what the hell? Now I could care less, I have just became more angry and depressed, putting into the initiative to try and get across my hint to leave me the f**k alone, all day. They know that I don't want human contact yet they continue to bother me all the time so then my method is: Actions speak louder than words.

When it comes to idiots, I like to observe their behavior and not comment. It can get frustrating, but the satisfaction of my predictions coming true is worth it. It's like an abstract game
I once observed bullies from my school throwing stones at cars, and realised that eventually something interesting would happen, and I watched a car stop and someone chase them away - one of them left their bike on curb and the driver took it and drove off - and the satisfaction of watching that happen outweighed the satisfaction I would've got from successfully explaining to them what could happen.

You can't fix stupid.

sounds like me indeed.
as for the minds purpose; if you want to hear one, how about the caregiver, the sentry, the 'sage' if you will.
there is probarbly a reason that the shamans, druids and medicine men of the old tribal society showed traits of AS

You are a thoughtful and intelligent individual.

Your view of Snape was spot on. I was also not surprised. Because Severus was a beautiful, complex, human character. He felt regret, and love, and shame, and was not just a token 'bad guy'. He was smart and calculating, and always did what had to be done. You understood him, instead of judging him. You understand things.

A big problem with a lot of people's world views is that they believe that their judgement of something is actually an understanding of it.

They are wrong. It's a common misconception. You are very insightful. Now you just have to understand and sadly accept that the rest of the world is less so.

You are a thoughtful and intelligent individual.

Your view of Snape was spot on. I was also not surprised. Because Severus was a beautiful, complex, human character. He felt regret, and love, and shame, and was not just a token 'bad guy'. He was smart and calculating, and always did what had to be done. You understood him, instead of judging him. You understand things.

A big problem with a lot of people's world views is that they believe that their judgement of something is actually an understanding of it.

They are wrong. It's a common misconception. You are very insightful. Now you just have to understand and sadly accept that the rest of the world is less so.