Need. To. Go!

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I hate my family, especially my parents, it's a sad fact but it is a fact. I tell my mom everyday "Back off, I want to learn by myself." she says "Ok" but what do you know, she does not back off! She won't stop telling me when to clean my room, do my jobs, when I can play games, how loud to put the stereo, what to say, how to please her/women, when to watch TV, when to go to sleep, when to wake up... and my dad backs her up on everthing, both share the blame equally. It's like she wants to convert me into a girl, it sickens me. Now I'm trying to do things on my own, and being the aspie that I am, I do it nonverbally, ignoring her while I walk out the door to school, ignoring her and not excepting her offers to make me food. It is long overdue that she let me think of my own accord, less than 10 days from me turning 18. I've explained this a couple times throughout the forums but basically my parents control so much that it's difficult for me to do anything without someone giving me every little bit of information, I'm basically a 10 year old in a bodybuilder-5' 9"-pissed off-body.
I am actually questioning myself wheather or not I'd actually hurt my parents or one of my siblings, it's hard to control the emotions I do have because they are intense and raw, who knows what I might do. At first, I wouldn't think of it, now I'm second guessing myself. That's not good. However I have a difficult time doing something without it getting me personal gain or it at least being logical... It's a 50/50 chance.
The first little chance I get to move out, I will not hesitate to take it.