Unable to cope with changes in the family

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Does anyone else feel like this?

When somebody in my family changes their life or their routine, I get in a horrible rage. When I was a teenager, I used to get really, really jealous when one of my cousins found a boyfriend or a girlfriend, obviously because I could never find one and I just craved for another close relative to be like me. But when you live in a family of NTs, this may never happen. I got myself all het up about it, and got so horribly jealous that I started sort of bullying my cousins if they got a boy/girlfriend. Not in a really nasty way - just so I could feel better. Then I grew out of that around the age of 16 or 17, but I still get really upset when somebody changes their life. Right now one of my cousins (who is 20) is showing signs that she's pregnant, and it just feels all strange because this will be the first baby coming along after our generation, if you know what I mean. And I don't like babies either, but I won't be able to escape this one because she'd be bringing it to my house a lot because she's a close relative. Anyway - I can't imagine her with a baby - she can't even be bothered to go out and get a job, and her mum still does everything for her (she still lives at home).

OK, it's boring me rambling on about my family because nobody here knows my family, but you get what I mean. Does anyone else feel the same when something changes with a family member?

Not really but I hated when my brothers have too many friends over and have parties and be in my personal space.

They both got girlfriends before me and socialized a lot and I didn't. It made me feel literally ret*d. Then they were having jobs before they got out of high school and they worked during the school year and my parents allowed it but didn't want me having a job in high school. They said "You're only a kid once, enjoy it, don't rush to grow up." But their real reason was they knew I wouldn't be able to handle it, school and working.


I even used to get fantasies about sabotaging my brothers parties so their friends would never want to come back.

I never noticed other people enough for it to bother me, unless of course the change affected me.
I just went "Oh, people are doing people stuff... and now they're doing slightly different people stuff... that's nice".

I felt that way about my cousin when I was a kid but then she moved so far out in the country there was hardly anyone around. There wasn't anyone to be jealous of then.

My cousin took out her frustration at living in near isolation on me by getting jealous whenever I returned to the city where I lived after visiting. She also treated me with a lot of resentment.