What were meltdowns like for you?

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What did you experience physically and mentally?
For me, they were this awful feeling inside you. They just crept up to you and burst. At that point, I`d have succumbed to that rage, and would be out of control. I was not unaware of my surroundings, but it was almost as if I could not control anything. I would throw things across the room, scream, cry, and be verbally abusive. Afterwards I would gain back control and fall into despair due to what has occurred.

I feel stress and anxiety. I also get all this rage and unwanted feelings and don't know what to do with them. I have screamed before or hit myself and felt like hitting people and throwing things to get my way so those feelings go away. Plus it makes it harder for me to control my stims. If I am stimming like crying while trying to stay calm, that is a hint I am heading for one. That is when I am feeling anxiety. I mostly cry and scream during them. I even found out that yelling words can be considered one. My husband calls those meltdowns when I started yelling at him when I get upset. I also have no memory of what I say when I am very upset. I tend to say very hurtful things and then not remember. I can also get violent too if I get pushed too far.

Very similar here.

sounds very familiar and its like a thunderstorm in your brain and it has to rain itself out-afterwards I do not feel right and feel physically and mentally drained.

I'm a 20 year old aspie/add and for me its kind of hard to tell at the moment because I've not paid close attention to my aspergers traits and have spent a lot of time trying to escape from the diagnosis as I've grown up. Ignorance is bliss I guess.

My meltdowns usually involve a severe panic attack and rushing thoughts that I can't control or look at objectively...then again thinking about it here its pretty hard to look at your thoughts objectively, depending on how much time you spend observing them I guess...

Anyway I'm pretty sure for me a melt down, in its complete form, usually involves a tide of sad/negative emotion and I end up just sort of lying on the ground in the fetal position or some other kind of defeated sort of pose.

Yeah, its usually sadness for me, since I remember. A psychologist I've been seeing has diagnosed me as having AVPD, basing that on the 'nice guy' sort of mentality I have.

Except when I play heaps of counter strike. That is the one thing in this world that makes me rage. Though I don't think I'd call that a meltdown though, usually just frustration. I'm extremely patient with most people....to my detriment