So basically I have this thing where I will rapidly raise both my arms above my head and the fingers of my two hands with face each other, and I'll move all ten fingers like brushing against each other, all my fingers will move the full range of motion. I'm I'm hyperactive and inattention at the time, I'll walk around my room, having dialogues in my head with others, or just constant thoughts like a rapid never ending monologue with myself, and get worked up over things, and then the arm movements will happen from time to time, all this usually happens when I'm alone, at least I try to control all of this in public, but it's hard. I'm aware that repetitive movements are a part of ASD for some people, wondering if anything else experiences this.
My diagnosis is up in the air, I definitely meet the full symptom list for ADHD and have many other traits, like I completely can't read body language, can't display my own body language, can't tell stories or make jokes, don't know what to say to start or continue a conversation, but I can answer questions if I'm paying attention, especially if involve some sort of pattern of mechanical logic that can be followed, I usually have strong obsessive interests, and have never had the natural ability to make eye contact. My motor coordination is pretty bad, I can't play any sports or dance, my language ability is sort of good, I can talk normally and sometimes use good vocabulary but I can't spell and sometimes stutter or say the wrong word, my emotional control is quiet poor, often get suddenly angry, sad, or overly excited. I also tend to have obsessional thoughts, going over the same thing in my head, checking and making sure of certain things, even if they don't relate to my obsessive interest. My attention span is almost nothing, can't read/listen to anything without stimulants. My memory is very bad, working memory and short-term memory is really lacking, I can't do math in my head or calculate anything without doing it outloud and/or on paper talking myself through it out-loud, and can't remember to do things I need to do. And lastly, I ramble on, but you know that by now!
05 Dec 2011, 7:54 am
