TurnLooseTheSwans wrote:
Hi guys I was wondering if any of you shared of had any advice for the situation I find myself in.
Going through this forum I have read about people's motivation and concentration trouble when it comes to school and college life but I still struggle to find motivation for the stuff that i love 'music,poetry,literature,reading'
I am a diagnosed Aspie and have
acute clinical depression and feel almost cheated that I can't access my obsessions and excel' instead i end up obsessing over the fact that I have no motivation or concentration.
Any replies appreciated,
Jack
Hi Jack,
I hope you are doing better by now
. I actually think the lack of motivation is due to your depression. Same has happened to me and I´m still struggling with pursuing my special interests. But in my case a reason for my lack of motivation for my "obsessions" could also be that the people closest to me (my family) always told me that I shouldn´t spend too much time on silly and random stuff, like learning Russian and reading about Japan, etc. The consecuence was that I tried to share the interets of my parents and of the people they valued. My parents also said I had to be more social, so I tried to go out more, meet people, which actually exhausted me a lot so I didnt have the strength anymore to read, etc. Now, after Asperger has been diagnosed to me, I´m a bit "back on track", allowing myself to go after my special interests again with no remorse, and spending more time alone on these interests. I still feel a bit exhausted and depressed, so I try not to rush, I´m going step by step. Last night I watched several Russian language videos on youtube and today I´m reading some books, but whenever I get tired, I take a break. I mean, the brain also is like a muscle, and if it has slowed down to dperession, been inactive for a while/stand- by, then you cannot expect it to go back to 100% from one day to another. Step by step
. Well, I don´t know if you have similar experiences, but I tell you this so you can maybe think about your own history and maybe find an explanation for your lack of motivation
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Head up!
saludos!