neurologist thinks i have greater self awareness then most people achieve after a lifetime. So why am I so confused about everything. I get that most people think me ret*d. I don't recognize anyone or hear most of what people say. We look at lips for a reason. One social worker tried to tell me amblopia and epilepsy were mental illnesses. Needless to say I do not want her advice. My life has been nothing but isolation and there is little I can do about it now. Am in too much pain everyday now. Worked with trichlorethylene on an engineering work term where I was left unsupervised with this carcinogen renowned for causing nerve damage. This perpetual pain is minimally treatable with narcotics, neuroepileptics and vasodialators which I use 24/7. I am angry that it was only at the end of the term when I broke a beaker of the stuff in the doorway to an adjoining lab that personnel decided to vacate those precious workers deemed not so expendable which included one of the staff engineer's sons. I have always been a 2nd class citizen in everything but wonder if there is any recourse 20 years after the fact. I am unable think, leave home, keep up basic chores and only hope that my life comes to an end soon rather than continue having migraines and other neck and tendon pain that have turned me into a cripple. My family is no support. If only pain had color. Any suggestions?
02 Jan 2012, 12:29 am
