Chinese aspie's discussion (translated post)

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This is a pretty good life experience with true feelings, and it speaks much of myself too. So I decide to translate and share it.
Author: Mu Shi Jie Meng at http://tieba.baidu.com/p/1014658655; translated by Hans. （Included in parenthesis are my comments)

My symptoms of Asperger Syndrome

1.[Difficult to understand the feelings of others] I cannot understand other people's feelings. I find it difficult to vent out moods as normal people. I have a good temper when I was a child and my parents and neighbours said I was simpleminded. When together with the companions I was often fooled by them.
(100% percent true to me)

2.[Poor nonverbal communication] I always feel nothing to say when together with others. What others enthusiastic at could not enter my brain totally. My eyes could not look at their eyes too, and instead, I was thinking in my mind some repetitive and special numbers, habitually.
(Seems that Chinese aspies are especially poor on eye contacts. I'm usually thinking of words instead in that occasion)

3.[Non-normal pronunciation] My pronunciation is not normal, without the cadence and tone of the normal people. (I have this too, but seem instead to exaggerate cadence too much)
I have a poor balance, that I can fall down by a simple push of others. I can't make big jumpings, and I can't climb trees, swim and jump ropes.
(I seem to be dumb in delicate actions, but it doesn't seem to hamper too much on my athletic abilities.)

4.[Special interests on some disciplines] I like to read encyclopedias and I like to read history and geography books since childhood. There is no nature/sociology courses in primary school but I can surprise teachers by telling him or her what I have read on those. I have very good grades on history/geography in middle school as well as knowing much that is not covered by textbooks. So even if I don't get no.1 in exams classmates say my history is the best.
(Almost 100% percent true to me!)

5.[Execellent mechanical memory] As I heard from my mother, when she was teaching me words, only one time is needed and I can remember that word, and never forget.
(I remembered many stupid things. Military units, soccer players, historical person/times, fantasy concepts... and so on)

6.[Inappropriate single-aspect social interaction, lacks ability to build friendship and cause isolation] I feel I don't have much friend all along, and those so-called friends aren't deep. When I was in primary school I went on well with children from our villages and other villages, although sometimes got bullied too. It's noticeable that I like more to be with children from other villages than from my own village, and interacted better with them. I also remember that I played well with an old man in the village at that time, and often went to his home.
(It's true that my friendships is narrow and dedicated. I was once mocked for being too "loyal" to one best friend at middle school- even he might not like me that much in fact. I could also accept strange friendships- many of my net friends are much elder than me)

7.[Thirst for perfection] When I heard about aspies' have such an aspect, I remind that I was truly spirited in study at middle school. However, some aspects of asperger learning difficulties hampered me. When heard about somebody was so good or so hard in study, I was really sad, despite others might not care at all. I am perfect in my ideal, but few could understand me in school environment, and school life is different from my ideal life too (For me, almost every life. -Hans), it has a variety of factors that it's impossible for to me to live an ideal life at school.
(Basically, very true to me. It will plague me when something very trivial is not done.)

8.[Love] Aspies generally mature much later than normal people in this aspect. I heard the mental age of aspies are only 2/3 of the normal people, and so was the good feelings of them toward the opposite sex.
(True for me. Concept of love and sex was absent to me until perhaps 22-23. No girlfriends so far)

9.[Sense of justice] I heard when seeing others in difficulty, the attitude is fundamentally different for Aspergers and Depression patients. I hate to see others bullying the weak. In middle school one girl threw out another girl's schoolbag out into the corridor, and the bullied girl cried while picking up things. Another girl blamed the bullying girl but she arrogantly replied:" I bullied her, so what?" Other students of class watched as if nothing happened. I was outrageous to see that!
(I am overall sympathetic toward the weak because I was bullied in the similar way before.)

10.[Repeat mechanical movements] During primary school grade 4 I always like to jump over the shadow of trees, without reason, and continued for a year, until I finally got bored of it and corrected it in grade 5.
(I wave hands, as everybody now knows. However, that's a control of rhythm. And it helps me singing too.)

11.[Others]
-I can't distinguish s and >s for a long time, until I suddenly understood it in grade 3 as if being shocked, and I was very happy.
(I however had a bad momery on most science symbols)
-I have a very poor attention. When doing math questions I could only think of first two steps and no more deep. A very minor noise besides or impulse in my mind would distract me and make me hard to continue. I usually ignore what teachers and parents suggested me and insisted on my way of doing things.
(Almost 100% true for me! However that might be resulted by ADHD too)
-I have a poor listening too. Lecturing of teachers almost have no effect on me. Sometimes I can't hear others talkings and made others annoyed.
(True to me too, and I also talk to the others not very loud.)
-My mind is more sensitive than the others, and my feelings are more fragile than the others. Sometimes tear came out after reading a small piece of moving words.
(Possibly true to me, and I was very susceptible to crying before high school)
-Compulsiveness and anxiety: When I was young I always check stuffs that I have already done, like have OCD. Like Anderson's fairy tales, always think of some ordinary things very bad and worry about that a lot.
(100% true to me!)
-I have poor ability of generalize concepts and experiences. These two, combined with weak abstract thinking, damaged foundamentally to my studies and grades.
(On the contrary, I think I'm good of those in liberal arts disciplines. But it's true that math theories baffled me.)

(I really don't want to write that long. English is not a succinct language at all!!)

Let me know if any part of my translation is difficult to understand.