That ectastic euphoric feeling with your aspie obsession

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I hope im not the only one who gets a euphoric strange natural " High" when i read a History book ( my obsession)....or whatever obsessive object/topic you care about. I wonder if anyone else gets the feeling i have a hard time conveying here ?

I get that "natural high" feeling from my obsessions too. It's especially intense during the first year or so after initially acquiring an obsession (what I like to call the "honeymoon phase").

That's a large part of why it's an obsession, the intrinsic pleasure associated with it.

I kinda used to, not so much anymore.......Also I used to really enjoy reading it was my favorite activity because I always felt good when I was lost in a book. PTSD screwed up the reading for me I was reading up to 4 books at once switching off....then something traumatic happens at my school and all the sudden I could not enjoy reading and even realized it became more of a struggle because I never was able to get the kinda focus I had on reading back.

For me, it's more like an escape into hyperfocus than pleasure. It is a gratifying departure to absorb certain information related to certain interests, as opposed to languishing in the turmoil of mundane worry and alienation.

I often worry unnecessarily for long periods of time, and thinking really fast by default doesn't help. When the thinking process slows down, I often feel as if clarity has increased. This may be more common in those with higher anxiety levels. It's great to be able to decrease one's anxiety and worrying. Hint.

Sorry if it was awkward if I got somewhat off-topic?

I get that too. I had to Google it to see what it means, but as soon as I saw the meaning I immediately knew that was me (even though I kind of guessed what it meant anyway when reading the OP).

I don't like getting this feeling. When I find out something new about my obsession, I never quite know how to act or what to say to other people, especially if they have told me something new about my obsession. I feel all excited and obsessed inside but I'm not quite sure how to express it without looking insane, so I just kind of feel awkward and even a bit embarrassed. Then I feel I want to find out more and more, and the new fact that I have found out keeps on repeating and repeating in my mind for the next few days, as if I can't believe it. After about a week or so, I kind of accept the new fact, and I stop going on about it then.

But sometimes I get so excited that I begin to feel depressed. It's harder when you're obsessed with certain people like I am, because when I find out something new about them, I start wishing I was really involved and wishing I was them and wanting to find out more and more.

Ooohhh, sometimes I just wish I wasn't obsessed with anyone.

For me, hyperfocusing and thinking twogether compose the high. I enjoy blocking out the external world and existing almost entirely in my internal world, except with my eyes working for incoming information and my fingers working for outgoing information. It is like I exist in a little blob behind my eyes, with my "self" drawn into my brain.

A similar high I receive from my favorite forms of exercise, biking and skating. When biking or skating, I enjoy sensing the external world and generating the rhythms of the repetitive movements, and I stop thinking almost entirely. It is like I exist in a large sheet all over my body, with my "self" spread out to interface with the physical environment.

These two types of highs are opposing experiences but equally euphoric.

In the pre computer 70's I designed a game that simulates naval warfare of the two world wars using dice and tables. I plagarized commercial games by sdi and avalon hill, and just applied my knowledge of history and invented my own kind of crude calculus to figure out things.

Ended up with a quite realistic fairly playable game-though it would look cumbersome to a modern video gamer because it involved dice and paper and pencil.

Playing it was litereally more addicting than crack. I tried crack once or twice in my misspent youth so I know.

That's how longboarding makes me feel!

Among other things.

This is me exactly! Since my obsessions tend to be people, I have to monitor reactions carefully so it doesn't look insane or stalker-ish. So, looking up stuff on the internet, when someone else is around, I can't get all excited (or upset, depending on what I find)but can't let it show.
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I don't like getting this feeling. When I find out something new about my obsession, I never quite know how to act or what to say to other people, especially if they have told me something new about my obsession. I feel all excited and obsessed inside but I'm not quite sure how to express it without looking insane, so I just kind of feel awkward and even a bit embarrassed. Then I feel I want to find out more and more, and the new fact that I have found out keeps on repeating and repeating in my mind for the next few days, as if I can't believe it. After about a week or so, I kind of accept the new fact, and I stop going on about it then.

But sometimes I get so excited that I begin to feel depressed. It's harder when you're obsessed with certain people like I am, because when I find out something new about them, I start wishing I was really involved and wishing I was them and wanting to find out more and more.

Ooohhh, sometimes I just wish I wasn't obsessed with anyone.[/quote]

I used to get obsessed with people
Especially of the opposite sex and i would go to the extend of frightening them off
after a while they would cut me out of their life

Then i was obsessed with hobbies like occult, books, drawing etc
but the obsession would last for a while and eventually fade away to oblivion

same story here bro...

can't really explain what it's like, I'm really bad at explaining stuff. Your explanation of an ecstatic euphoric strange natural high pretty much fits it i think.

Oh, and I like history too. Among other things.