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when i have had bouts of depression leading to thoughts of suicide it's comforting, but when my life may be at risk at a chance of cancer i start to freak out and panic. they lead to the same result, so why the different response? and i am depressed right now (no suicidal thoughts, though), so it's not a difference there. it doesn't make sense.

Just my opinion, but maybe with the thoughts of suicide, you feel like you would be in control in how it's handled, whereas with the thought of cancer, you wouldn't have that control. Yes, they may would both end up the same, but you feel you'd have the control in one and not the other. Please don't take your own life though.

It's about control. You and only you have control over suicide. Sometimes thats the only thing you do have control over in your life at the moment, the option of living it or ending it. Something like cancer, stroke, heart disease etc is out of your control and something that is done to you, not by you.

Sometimes I have lots of suicidal thoughts, and even though I may not want to die at the time, it feels like I've accomplished something by choosing not to do it. When I'm in the grips of major depression, choosing not to kill myself feels like the only thing positive or even proactive that I can do at the moment, so I feel I've accomplished something by choosing not to do it.

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I think a lot of people behave like that, who have some sort of depression or rough events happening in their life that they are unable to cope with. My brother is depressed, and he only says he smokes because he wants to die early, and when I say ''but smoking causes cancer'', he says, ''I don't care whether I got cancer or not.'' Then he soon complains when he gets a little sniffle or something. Last week he felt miserable because he kept feeling dizzy, and he said, ''oh I want to stop this feeling!'' so he took an afternoon off work to go up the doctors to get rid of it. I almost said, ''uh, you'll have to suffer a lot more than that if you got cancer.''

But people who smoke have the wrong attitudes anyway.