TheSunAlsoRises wrote:
Transhuman wrote:
TheSunAlsoRises wrote:
Transhuman wrote:
What I noticed is that half to 2/3 of the actions which I do when I do "this" are exactly the same as those with low functioning autism do.
You don't have many melt downs either; I'm willing to bet.
TheSunAlsoRisesWell, very often (usually 0.5 to 2 times a day), I get angry and annoyed to such a point that I start punching walls and breaking things around me. This usually happens usually when I'm preoccupied with my activity and someone keeps distracting me by saying irrelevant stuff, or when I feel very empty and frustrated. I also scream when I'm doing this - usually swearing.
I do it with such intensity that my neighbors have called the police 2 times. Both of the times, they arrived with assault rifles.
I also feel like I can relate to the LFA people a lot for some reason.Your developmental trajectory was unique. Described strictly from a behavioral stand point; i imagine people would classify you as so-called low functioning. Ahhhhh, but from an intellectual perspective; you would be considered so-called high functioning and YET your innate tendencies lean more toward Kanners autism then Aspergers autism.
Let me form my question this way: IF i took your stims away via tractor sounds, rolling on the bed, hand waving, etc. Do you think you would have more or less meltdowns than you normally do?
TheSunAlsoRises
I would start feeling empty and unfulfilled, as well as very frustrated. These noises/actions make me feel very fulfilled, and if they would get taken away, I would assume I would assume I would have more meltdowns. What I noticed is that I often use some of these noises when communicating with people. I try not to, but when I start feeling like I could relate to the person, I often do. I would tell them something like "I'm a tractor beep beep", or make cat sounds.
As for the developmental trajectory: I also didn't dress myself completely until the age of 12-13. I was spoon-fed until the age of 11, but I knew how to use my spoon when I was around 2 years old and half.
I also tend to feel very overwhelmed by the real world and all of it's demands, to the point that my mind goes blank and I just walk around like a zombie.