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No, I cannot turn off my emotions "at will". At times I'll be overwhelmed & my expression of emotions may stall out or shut down-because I just can't take any more. Could appear that I'm not experiencing emotions, but they continue roiling inside-my ability to verbalize & think articulately can't keep up with my feelings.
^This is EXACTLY me. I have trained myself to appear pokerfaced and emotionless when in stressful situations where I don't know how to act or respond, or when I don't know if my emotions are appropriate to show. This mostly happens when I get very overwhelmed and am crying and shouting for help inside, but sometimes it occurs with joy, excitement, ANGER, and others... just because my emotions are not showing does not mean they are not tormenting me from the inside.
I am getting better at letting them out with people that I am comfortable with, and i certainly feel better and can avoid meltdowns when i do, but I still close up in most situations that i am uncomfortable with.
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Diagnosed HFA as of April 2014. I thought that achieving testing would conclude the he journey, but alas, it's only the beginning!