Special intrests and my interperation of "Head Like a H

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When I hear the 9 Inch Nails song, "Head like a hole",

I interpret it as being about obsessions/special interests, which have always been my strongest autistic trait. "Head Like a Hole" really is more of a metaphor of the turmoil other people gave me because of them. The people who gave me the most trouble were usually authority figures such as school teachers, physiologists and even my own parents.

The term "God money" is referring to them. Anyway, here is my personal interpretation of the lyrics.

"God money I'll do anything for you.
God money just tell me what you want me to" When I was younger, I would practically do anything for people to let me have my obsessions.

"God money nail me up against the wall"The "authority figures" would often verbally chastise me about how I needed to stop being so obsessive or about something they just didn't like about me, it was like being backed up into a corner.

"God money don't want everything he wants it all"I could never be "less obsessive" enough.

"no you can't take it, no you can't take that away from me"I don't want people trying to change me and will always protest violently



"Head like a hole, black as your soul"A metaphor for a black hole. Because once something gets sucked in, or I get obsessed with it. I rarely stop obsessing over it. The line "black as your soul" can be a reference to how so many people accused me of being selfish because I wanted to talk about nothing but my obsessions. My mother remarks about how she thought she was literally going to go insane if she had to hear about meerkats (or whatever my obsession was at the time) for the umpteenth time. I always feel like I am suffocating if I can't talk about my obsessions. I felt my mother was the selfish one because my need to talk about my obsessions was probably stronger than whatever negative feelings she felt. My mother even made me cry on several occasions because she made me feel so bad about my obsessions. Other people made me feel so bad I practically felt like I was the antichrist. "Black as your soul" can be interpreted as how "evil "people thought I was or about how "evil" I found the other people.

"I'd rather die than give you control"Basically this verse is literal. Becoming less obsessive would be the ultimate expression of submitting to oppression. No matter what was dished out at me, I never would give up my obsessions. This verse is basically literal. Martyrdom has always been my ideal death.

"Bow down before the one you serve"Whenever I protested against being subjected to stop being so obsessive, I was usually yelled at for being "disrespectful". In a way, children are expected to worship authority figures and aren't allowed to defend themselves.

"You're goanna get what you deserve"The adults telling me that by not giving in and obeying the adults and giving up my obsessions, whatever hostility I experienced was going to be my own fault.

"God money's not looking for the cure"The authority figure's desire to stop me from obsessing aren't because they think it's somehow hurting me; but because they find it annoying and it bothers them. When people seek out a "cure" for something, they usually have good intentions and have the person's best interest at heart (or at least think they do)


"God money's not concerned with the sick amongst the pure."Basically confirming what the previous verse is trying to say. "Pure", people who are obsessed with maintaining conformity and are not "contaminated" by an obsession with something obscure.

"God money, let's go dancing on the backs of the bruised."My parents, teachers and physiologists would often tell me it was my fault I was being bullied for my obsessions. I had a physiologist who was an expert at this.


"God money's not one to choose"My teachers, psychologists, etc didn't care what my obsession was. If it was an obsession, they wanted me to stop obsessing about it.

"you know who you are"The ones who engage in these actions know it and they know it is wrong. Basically self explanatory.


I've also found "Fall to Peices" by Avril Lavigne can also be about obsessions/special intrests.

Very interesting interpretation. I've often interpreted songs to reflect aspects of my own life as well. One example is that I interpret the song "Everywhere" by Michelle Branch to be about my imaginary friends.

Cool! I also have imaginary friends...well I guess that's what the normal people would call them. I've always considered them as totems or spirit guides.They've always been animals... and always felids. "Wherever you will go" by the Calling I to me about mine.

Nice. That song reminds me of mine too. Come to think of it, I could easily fill up a whole playlist of songs that remind me of my imaginary friends. Even though I call mine *imaginary friends", my mom and one of my psychologists both mentioned that they seem to fulfill a spiritual function in my life. I have an idea that maybe the same spirit has been with me my whole life, but changes its form to reflect whatever my special interests are at a given time (my imaginary friends are always based on my special interests).

It's about rebelling against the status quo and "god money."

Yeah, that's the offical interpertation but I like to have my own.

Yours is better!

I've NEVER told anyone in real life about my "imginary friends" or totems. My main one is a jaguar. I didn't know he was a jaguar until my mid teens after a weird dream I had where I was about to escape from a phyc ward, but on my way out, I peeked into a room and there were a bunch of doctors and medical people surrounding a jaguar having a grand mal seziure and nothing they tried would stop it. I ran into the room, expecting everyone to try and stop me but for some reason they didn't. The even backed away to give me space. I put my hands on the jagaur's seziure stops and the jaguar wakes up and is perfectly fine. I am told the jagaur's name is Rubicon and am asked to take him with me. We walk out of the hospital together and everyone is cheering and there are baloons and confetti in the sky.

I had the same dream about jagaurs everynight since I was kid where a jaguar would reach out of a buch and grab my brother's foot and be rough but when it grabed mine, it was gentle. I think it was the same jagaur in the hospital dream. Anyway, that's the orgin of my jaguar "imiginary friend". There's a dream thread on here now. I'm gonna go post about this in there now.


Really? Thanks!

yw

your interpretation. . .I've always known I was different and interpreted lyrics more so than others.