Almost complete lack of empathy.

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I'm wondering if anywhere here can explain why people, like myself, lack empathy. I don't really care to change this aspect about myself because, for me, it's better to be detached from people.

The only people I care about are my fiancee and my best friend. I also care about my pets a great deal. My parents support me financially, but I don't care about them. They say they support me emotionally, but I don't believe it and it their words just roll off of my back. If they were to die tomorrow, I'd be more concerned about how I'm going to do without money or a job rather than the fact that I lost my parents. It would be less of a concern if I was functional enough to hold a job or even drive. When I hear about people, even children, being killed in the news, I don't feel anything. I can watch people get tortured in movies without flinching and have even seen real footage of people committing suicide or murder. It just doesn't bother me. Sometimes I even find that kind of thing entertaining.

I'm also extremely selfish. If my fiancee wants to do something without me, I feel left out and I start to get jealous. She's very insecure about losing me too, but I still feel like she's going to betray and hurt me, so I feel like I always need to be around her so she doesn't. She does need her space and time away from me, but I don't and I always want to be around her. I really don't need anyone else in my life. I do want to change this about myself because I don't want to lose her and I do truly love her, though in an unhealthy way.

I only have one friend, mostly because I don't care to meet anybody (though I've tried at the recommendation of my doctor) because I generally dislike and distrust people. When she doesn't want to do anything with me, I really don't get bothered. I care about her and she's the only person I tell everything to. I feel like if I lost her, I'd lose something important to me.

Other people around me I could care less about. I don't care about their problems, what they think about me, or what they want. If they got in the way of my goals, I'd get rid of them because it benefits me. I don't want to cause harm to them, but if they caused harm to me, I'd go to great lengths to make them miserable. I'd even torture their families while they watch if I knew I wouldn't get caught. If someone can get me what I want or help me, I'll use them or try manipulating them. I care as much about people as I do the ants on the sidewalk that I step on.

I'm curious to know why I think this way. I think that I developed this way of thinking in my early teens, but I wonder if my brain was already wired like this.

I found much of what you wrote quite disturbing, but particularly this:

I have two doctors. A psychotherapist and a neuropsychiatrist. One says I have C-PTSD and the other says it's because I'm bipolar.

I don't know why people keep believing that lacking empathy is just unique in Aspies. I've discovered that I've come from a self-centered society.

Empathy is a bit strange. People can have empathy, but if the resulting behaviour is always real?

I do not have empathy for a lot of people, I have it for a few friends, for my direct family and for a few others I encountered in my volunteer work or on internet. These are people I know do not fake their feelings towards me and that I care about. But for most people I just fake it, by using the social rules I learned through the years. Sometimes people perceive me as cold, but most of the times I seem to fake it enough

But to be honest, what happens to most people I do not care about a great deal and do not take the problem.

NTs may be feeling empathy, but they probably just ignore it and do not behave accordingly.

(for so far my black Sunday outlook on myself and society)

I tend to feel empathy only in an abstract, general way, and not with much intensity. I will hear/read about people getting hurt/killed and feel a little sorry for them and their families, but not real strong feelings. I also don't have strong feelings of empathy for relatives, and have to "fake" it at times. I don't like having to fake empathy for them, but they would get more upset if I didn't. It's part of the price of being part of a family. Since they help me out a lot, I have to do some things to maintain a family connection, although any real bond is beyond my ability to form. Except for family pets, I have never been able to bond with anyone. I would have liked to, but I don't seem to be wired for that.

Google the "Warrior gene" you might be a sociopath

Most people lack empathy. NTs are just better at faking it than we are. But if you actively enjoy hurting people, you're crossing the border into Psychopath Land.

Today's society lacks empathy, not just Aspies.

On a somewhat related note, isn't it funny that Asperger's was referred to as "Autistic Psychopathy"?