atd321 wrote:
I can socialize quite well, I can small talk and all that, i can act perfectly like an NT and not be stressed out. I just feel fake and I want that to stop, I want to feel emotional. I also do a lot of school play's and i want to feel what the character is feeling, it's just hard. I remember I was 8 and i was crying over a section in Northern lights because I empathized with her. I think I have really really mild AS and I'm wondering if there was any way i could strengthen this ability through meditation or pills or something, cause it would be really useful. I just really wanna connect to the world. btw I did this test online and it said i can read faces better than most, could this be because of therapy. It's really confusing cause I havent shown stereotypical symptoms of AS for a few years, I'm wondering if I was misdiagnosed for ADHD
My therapist told me that children often empathize w/& project personalities onto inanimate objects but that it is outgrown in NTs. Apparently it is retained much longer in AS, if it is ever outgrown at all. She also tells me everyone often feels fake. You may have AS traits, or may be misdiagnosed. Lack of emotional 'richness' could also be due to chronic depression, nutritional insufficiency, or childhood trauma. You might want to get re-evalutated to clear things up, so the correct condition can be appropriately addressed & you'll have a better chance of success.
I don't want to feel any more emotional than I already do. I'd like to not be so easily hurt by other's rudeness, lack of understanding, & personal attacks.