Hey guys! Sorry, this will be a tad long...
(I'm new here, by the way)
My entire life, I've always known I was different. I've had/have friends, but few. I find it extremely difficult to make meaningful
emotional connections, though right now I have a boyfriend, a best friend, and a handful of friendly acquaintances. With my boyfriend, I am incredibly insecure that I'm going to lose him. Though true emotional connections are rare with me, they're intense when they do happen. I have had a lifelong obsession with birds, and a love affair with science (INTJ babay). Other obsessions include Pokemon, rocks, and seashells (still interests, but not obsessions anymore). I have an intense dislike for most people. I work in fast food, and while I treasure the job, I can barely handle it at times, especially if busy... It is a complete sensory overload. I had a panic attack today during a busy period when a customer was yelling at me. I've been yelled at my entire life, and I cannot handle yelling. If I'm yelled at, I burst into tears. I want friends, but at the same time, I don't. I've always had a problem with people listening to me. What I say is usually disregarded or I'm unable to get a word in edgewise at all. I'm a sophomore in college now and for the past few years, I've really began to realize that Asperger's would explain a lot about myself. I'm going through a very tough period right now, and I'd just like to have some advice and similar situations from someone, somewhere!
28 May 2012, 10:01 pm
