Hello I am new here and I have a few questions

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Ok I am 37 and I was 15 years in the one job until It closed last year.

I always found every social group I have been in through my life very awkward and I end up getting picked on.

I have never been in a relationship and I avoid eye contact with people.

I have booked an appointment to explore my situation.

From reading I seem to have all the symptoms of Asperger's .

I have a small facial defect from birth which I got fixed this year and I got bullied for that also.

I always believed it was the trauma of being bullied that made me act and feel the way I do.

The Aspenger's makes perfect sense.

If I have this condition I will feel more at ease that I have a condition and I am not just a total mess-up in life.

Peww.

hello Sharkattack. Nice to meet you. I am sorry you got bullied, and even if you find out you don't have asperger's, you are still welcome here with us.

Thanks.

Is putting this all together in my mind normal at my time of life?

Welcome, sharkattack. You forget to post your questions, though.

It is not that unusual. I figured it out at age 41.

I have to admit I might be rubbish relating to people but I am usually 100% bang on with my facts.

I know I have it beyond all doubt however I am going for the formal diagnosis.

Finding resources on the internet has been a blessing .

First of all welcome!
This is how I felt at first when I found out more about ASD's. I invested a lot emotionally in the idea of being an aspie and thought "Great, this explains x, y and z and so many other things and it means I'm not a big crazy loser".
But I invested so much in it that not having an official diagnosis weighed me down. I was still being dogged by a lot of 'what if's'. I spoke to my girlfriend about it late one night because I couldn't get to sleep. She said some things that really made me feel better.
She admitted that she thought I was putting too much status or value into being aspie and that I needed to come back down to Earth. Even if I was an aspie, she said, I was still human. And even if I'm not, those flaws I have that I wish to explain away? They're also what make me human!
In other words she just got me to relax and stop worrying about whether I was on the spectrum or not and just make some peace with who I am. Now I longer catch myself being insecure or exaggerating traits like I did very early on and the more I relax and be myself the more people here on WP relate to what I say and I to them.
Make peace with who and what you are. Your flaws just mean you're human and even if they're caused in part by an ASD that doesn't change them into anything esle, they're still flaws that need to be worked on. Hope this adds something in some way.

I'm 52 and the light only started to dawn a few months ago, in the wake of my best friend's daughter being diagnosed with Autism (she's high functioning but no more ready to go out into the world than I was at that age).