whalewatcher wrote:
This all relates to my idea of aspergers as a state of not having a coherent sense of 'self' as a 'social actor'. The inner experience of my mind is a sort of cloud of ideas and impressions. To connect that cloud with a physical presence, as seen by others, is unnerving.
My issue with pictures, movies, mirrors is kind of like that, but its not that I don't have a coherent sense of 'self', it's that what I see in those things doesn't match the image in my own mind, even if I couldn't define precisely what that image is. I just know that seeing myself in pictures and movies make me think along the lines of "I don't look anything like that, how did that happen?" There have even been times when I've looked through pictures friends have taken and when I find one of myself that isn't from a good angle or out of focus in a certain way, I have asked them who it was. They seem to find it amusing when they have to tell me I'm looking at a picture of myself.
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Your Aspie score: 181 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 40 of 200
You are very likely an Aspie
INTJ
What's the difference between ignorance and apathy? I don't know and I don't care.