Does anyone else here have non-corporeal, special interests?

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By that I mean do any of you have 'special interest' that aren't tangible or easily observable. Of lots of aspies gather facts or information, or have a favorite play or activity, but do any of you have a kind of 'interest' that if you never told anybody about, it would never stand out despite how strongly it resonates with you?

For example when I was younger, the only 'observable' thing I did was organize and arrange all my toys neatly and think with them. Of course I'd never smash them around or play the way you'd normally think, but arranging them help'd be imagine their world, and so I'd come up with all sorts of fantasy worlds and games just in my head, and having them neat and tidy helped me do that. But it only seemed like 'collecting' them to my parents and psychiatrist because I never told them about the stories.

Another weird thing I never told anybody was I did a thing I called self-splitting, where when I was sad, confused or overjoyed, sometimes I'd imagine anthropomorphic versions of my own emotions and self-aspects, and have intriguing, introspective and often humorous discussions. I even had one for my self-doubt/negative self-esteem and the rest of 'us' would egg him and chew him out everytime I felt I needed to (In a therapeutic kind of manne r).

The most recent and long-lasting 'interest' I have I guess might be called 'mental fan-fiction', in that whenever I like any series enough, be it whatever medium I have this habit of mentally re-constructing stories and worlds around the series, as well as adding chapters/episodes/issues of it in my ahead. I do this often to an obsessive degree, to the point where if I like it enough, it's impossible for me to enjoy the original without letting the fanfic gods run amok in my ahead. And if god-forbid I like the mental fic enough, I'll speculate and go off of that as well. (I rarely ever actually write fan-fiction or stories though, although I've humored myself at the thought of it.) I have my favorites, and the most long lasting one has branched hundreds upon hundreds of times, would probably take over thousands of pages to write, and is one very personal to me.

(Also keep in mind I probably have aspergers/autism, but I've never been formally diagnosed, only psychiatrically speculated, so I don't know if lots of aspies do this. no tomatos please :3)

So do any of you have 'non-corporeal', non-tangible special interest that don't show easily on the outside, but consume and color your life like I do?

From what I've seen on a previous post, it is not at all uncommon for those with Asperger's and autism to have elaborate "fantasy lives" or to dwell largely within the realms of their own minds.

I'm the same on the fan fiction thing, If I like something I make up huge amounts of stuff about it.

The thing with me is that I'm also a so called "spankophile", meaning I'm very, very, very obsessed with spanking in any way, shape and form. It can both be a sexual turn on and completely non sexual.

So what I do is that I make up spanking fan fiction, or stories, snippets, dramas, call it what you like, about EVERYTHING I like, books, tv shows, movies, games etc.

I also have a hard time convincing the psychologist that is assessing me for Asperger's that spanking is one of my special interests, and not "just" a fetish.
It is so strongly established as a somewhat common fetish, and with fetishes a certain intensity level is to be expected.

I have only mentioned it to her in passing a couple of times though, but she almost acts like she didn't hear me or is actively ignoring it.
Maybe to see if I can shut about it, to see if it's a "real" special interest? idk..

Yes. I am in my early 50s, and have had a very active daydream life my entire life. I have had many different daydream universes over the course of that time. Some have dropped by the wayside, others are ongoing, with several being more primary in nature, while others are more minor and less "visited."

i currently have a special intrest in laguage that goes unnoticed exept for the fact that i have become more articulate.