Progress on a diagnosis ..

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Things are moving along for me regarding getting a diagnosis, I saw the CBT lady again this week and the upshot of that is she is putting me forward to be evaluated / assessed for aspergers which is great news, I will find out one way or the other but it could still be months away... what if I am not diagnosed ? things start to bget scary now ...

Also I can say actually sitting down in a room with someone you don't know and telling them things you've never, ever told people before was very exposing / emotional.
I don't think I really enjoyed it, I felt very vulnerable and was on edge the whole time even though I did manage to communicate my feelings I felt close to losing control and having a minor shutdown.
I could feel my lips tightening up and my face going fuzzy and was close to not being able to talk properly.

The only thing I still have issues with is the social anxiety side and emotions, one thing that did discover though is that I am very emotional but force it down and tuck it away as i feel emotions make me weak and exposed. I think emotions make you lose control and apparently I am a control freak too ! !

I keep you posted on how it goes over the next months..

Stu

Everyone is really uncomfortable at first,if you weren't you wouldn't need to be seeing the lady,I'm sure she understands your discomfort,good luck.

Well.... I had my first official session last week, I filled out the forms before hand and had my wife help me answer them. Found out some things just answering those questions at home... I thought I did one thing shes tells me I do the other... interesting !
I am going back next week for what I think is the end of the intitial diagnosis, will find out what they think after that with regards where to go and indeed if I am an Aspie.

Struggling a bit at the moment with anxiety, stopped drinking at Christmas... feel a bit over emotional too, just want some me time but started a new higher position at work since the start of Jan.. had a mini sort of melt down at work whe someone didn't do as I asked them... I didn't handle it well and raged at them and wanted to hurt them. I could feel myself melting .. still haven't really come back from it. I feel I really am pretending all the time. Drained is how I feel right now, weak and emotionally fragile but not allowing myself to show it !
Really hope some good comes from the assessment.

Stu

Good luck with getting your diagnosis. Hope it's sooner rather than later.

Had my second and final assessment today, I will know on or before 5th March as to whether I am an Aspie or not ! !

Nothing I can do now but wait... scary stuff...

Stu