Wrong planet feeling

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Did/Do you have the feeling that gave this forum its name? The feeling that you don't belong here?

I've always had it, since I was a little child. I always knew something was different with me. As time went by and I couldn't figure out why I was so different than everybody else, I actually developed some weird fantasies. I imagined I actually was an alien, and eventually a secret organisation would contact me. Just stuff to console myself I guess.

The worst thing is that you can't properly explain this feeling to a NT. Also I think it's weird that it seems limited to autism, though you might think it would be present with other mental issues as well.

I have had it and yes it is weird that other disabilities do not share this feeling of alienation. I think its because we see the world completely different, like we live in two different worlds.

Absolutely. I feel as though I belong to a different species...

I also feel like I'm an alien living on the wrong planet. I've felt like I didn't belong and that I was different to other people for as long as I can remember. I don't feel at home anywhere and I cant understand people. I often wish I could go live on another planet.

The only time I don't feel like this is when I'm with other aspies

Exactly...

I always felt that I'm only one from my kind... always alienated, always felt that I don't belong to "normal" people world



until I got accurate diagnosis and met other persons with Asperger
first such meeting was like revelation for me

I suppose...? It could be the label making me feel this way, though

I always felt I was different and alone like something out of invasion of the body snatchers. There like sheep walking around half blind/deaf but I do really like them, got a ready supply of lab rats and they supply endless subjects and puzzles for me to solve. I know they think I'm odd but they like me anyway, bit like a cat but more neurotic they can be trained and hold more of a conversation sometimes.

edit - I never even suspected AS until a few month ago.

Erm, I actually do believe I am not from here.

To explain it I would say..
I am a startseed.
Means,my body is human, but mind not so much.

Yes and no. I had always thought that my way of thinking was right and the only reason everyone else around me didn't think that way is because I was around the wrong group of people. Now I know that it is me that thinks differently but I still don't think I am wrong.

An interesting aside here (that I have shared in another thread before this one) is the reaction my best friend (whom I have known since my early 20's) had when I told him about Asperger's and my suspicions of having it. He told me that when he first met me, it was like I was "from a different planet" because I was so odd. To me, that was sort of confirmation of Asperger's. He also shared things with me that I had forgotten that showed me that yes, I do have issues with Theory of Mind and was VERY bad about it years ago.

When I was in high school, I had no friends, the guidance counselor didn't know what I meant when I told him I was different than the other kids. I didn't really understand either. Whenever I heard about a new kid at school, I would get exited, hoping it would be someone like me, so that I could have a friend. But that never turned out to be the case. I have felt different and alienated all me life.

When I was a young adult, I preferred to be around people of different races. They seemed to accept me the way I was. I guess they didn't expect me to be just like them.

I've had this feeling ever since I entered into society, i.e. kindergarten. When I was a kid, I felt good in my family, since they really didn't pressure me into anything and they never seemed to think there was anything wrong with their smart child who fidgeted a lot, rocked, paced, spaced out in her dream world and her stories and was successively obsessed with cats, a few comics, dinosaurs and the battles (that went 2000 years ago) between the Romans and the ancestors of our nation... I guess they thought it was sweet and posh by then. They were accepting of me. And they never thought that my social isolation and failure to develop age-appropriate relationships with my peers was a problem (although I told them that troubled me a lot). However, now that I am a young adult and that they have NT expectations of me, I have disappointed them so much and I feel I don't really belong anymore to my family.

My point? As long as I was accepted and loved, I didn't feel as an alien. What actually make me feel like this is the rejection I get from people and the pressure towards conformity in society (and, as of late, in my family too). My NT friend who is gay can totally relate to this feeling, due to the isolation he encountered because of his sexual orientation. If society valued us and valued diversity, I bet we wouldn't feel as if from another planet...

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Probably 75% Aspie, 25% NT... and 100% ADHD

Aspie-quiz results:
Aspie score: 138 of 200 / NT score: 78 of 200 => Very likely an Aspie.

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5Rwfqg4zGIM[/youtube]I feel like this all the time!!

Even my earliest memories are of situations where I was amazed at how primative and irrational people were. It's not so much like I was on the wrong planet, more like I had been transported back in time from a more refined and rational, utopian, future - free of physical ailments and nonsesical beliefs. The most striking thing for me is that I still view the world this way... while people seem to be impressed with all the latest technology, I can only see shortcomings everywhere I look.

I was recently looking at an actual 1914 Tank in a museum and imagined the crew sharing the interior with the noisy, exposed engine going out to battle against heavy artilliary and it made my head spin. Rather than be impressed (as others clearly were) by the contrast with the latest heavyweight hardware sporting "fly-by wire" controls with numerous computer terminals displaying a night-vision VR battlefield etc., to me nothing had changed in a milenia - let alone a century. This is hard to explain so I shall offer another example...

I was reading one of Nobel physicist Richard Feynman's memoirs where he touchingly desribed how he lost his wife, Arlene, to TB. This tragic disease was a sure-fire killer up until the first half of the 20th century yet subsequently became easily treatable with antibiotics. There's a great deal of celebration when medicine makes such advances, yet to me, while things like cancer are still killing people every day, it feels like I'm permanently living in the dark ages.

I suspect that my feelings are the product of a deeper than typical analysis of the world around me coupled with an lesser ability to block the unpleasant or inconvenient as it seems many others can. Their world is therefore full of thoughtlessness and arbitrary norms that make no sense to me and consequently annoy me.

I only felt like I was from another planet as a small child. Then I thought that maybe I was the reincarnation of an extinct sentient species (otherkin). Then I thought that maybe I was a psychically deficient soul or something (psychic vampire). It made sense to see it as something lacking. Then I settled on being much smarter and more enlightened than the general public (something that I still kind of believe, but in a more optimistic--enlightened--way). Then, instead of finding another thing that seemed like a cool or positive explanation for how I am, I found a vocabulary that honestly explains both the good and bad sides of my differences: ASPERGERS!