I understand that everybody jumps at loud sudden noises, but it doesn't get to a point where it takes over their life, like it does with me. And other people don't take precautions like I do. For example, our smoke alarm goes off if something cooking in the oven burns a bit and sends off smoke, and I'm always prepared for that. When I've got to go past it, I put my fingers in my ears, even if nothing has burnt, I still do it just in case because I don't trust it with any food cooking, and if I'm carrying something in my hands then I take earplugs with me. But my brother will just come downstairs without worrying about the smoke alarm at all, and even if it goes off with him under it, it still doesn't bother him at all. But if I was caught under the smoke alarm the minute it went off, I would jump 6 foot in the air and involuntarily scream, and the shock of it would stay with me for at least half an hour after that, and I'd be all white and shaky. When other people jump, the shock of it doesn't stay with them for as long at it does me.
Most people say to me ''it doesn't make you jump if you're expecting it'', but it does with me. In fact, when I'm expecting a sudden noise, it makes it worse, in a way. If somebody was holding a balloon and said, ''I'm going to pop this balloon NOW'' and actually popped it immediately after saying ''now'', it might not shock me so much, but if somebody said that then waited a few seconds, it will shock me to pieces, even though I was prewarned. This is what caused issues with the bell at school. I kept a watch on my wrist at all times to keep an eye on the time, then when the bell was due to ring, I would try my best to not be under a bell until after it rings. I found myself dawdling about outside or in parts of corridors where there weren't any bells directly above me, which probably made me seem weirder than what I really was. The bell didn't seem to bother the other kids, only on rare occasions I've seen someone put their fingers in their ears when under a loud bell, but not often. It was just me that was so afraid of it, and it would be and all, being the only Aspie in a mainstream school. In the first 2 years of High School, they didn't use bells, which was lovely. Then a new headmaster came, and wanted to bring back using bells, which was so horrible for me. Just the thought of being under a bell always filled me with fear. I did try not to be once, but it didn't work. I found myself going all wobbly and nauseous when near a bell. But sometimes I think that this bell thing is not just a loud noise sensitivity - it's more of a lifelong phobia. Even now when I see a bell in a shop or somewhere, I still get a feeling of phobia filling up in me, and my mouth goes all dry like I have seen a ghost.
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