I have had it with people! Im not going to try any more...

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I am in no way a people pleaser type of person but I do want my family to be proud of me. I think thats pretty normal and lots of people want that. My problem is I always do something wrong. No matter how hard I try I always find a way to screw up! I say something wrong and offend some one, I dont look at them, I say a bad word, I dont show that I care about them. Just things like that, I try to control my mouth but Im never can. I always say exactly what on my mind! What I really want is for my mom to be proud of me, but she never can be because I do something bad.

My obession is dog training and I want her to be proud of me and my dogs and what they do. But she never agrees with me on how I train them. Yet if I were a bad trainer my dogs would be awful! But they are normally good dogs.

I wish I was a quiet Aspie, an Aspie that had little to say to any one. An Aspie that was good in school and made good grades. An Aspie obessed with science, an Aspie that was different in a good way. Im not any of those things. I talk all the time and always have something to say. Im bad at school because Im dyslexic, I didnt finsh freshmen year of high school. Im obessed with dogs, I hate science because I cant remeber what I learn in science. I have short term memory problems. Most of my differences are bad.

I guess I need to learn how to shut up and get smart, but how???

Cyberdad has good advice.

I'm sorry that you and your mom have been butting heads. You are a unique person with your own interests and abilities and I'm sure it's terribly frustrating for you when your mom doesn't seem to appreciate that.

I always do things wrong. So do 100% of the population.

You seem excessively self-critical. If your parents haven't been able to express that they're proud of you so far, they probably won't no matter what you do (either because they also are hypercritical, which would fit your dog training example, or because they express their pride of you in the wrong "love language" and the message doesn't get through).

My aspie son 'always' does things that others consider 'bad', but I understand how his mind works and they don't. Rarely, if ever, is his behaviour meant to cause offence- he's either reacting to sensory stimuli overload, or misunderstandings caused by not reading social cues. I am always being labelled a horrible parent because I get this ("he just needs a good smack", etc).

You were not made as an NT. If you don't look at people, or take something too literally, you are acting "normally" (for ASD) and NOT BADLY.

Your parents of all people should understand this. Maybe they do. I frequently tell my son when he does something that freaks NTs out, in an effort to help him blend in and spare him pain/ridicule. It'd be so easy for him to interpret this as "Dad thinks I always do things wrong".

Maybe it would help if your family read your post, and see how much you value their love and how hard you're trying?