Pokelover14 wrote:
I need deep pressure. But I always get embaressed when rocking with something hard like my laptop, or this thick clipboard that has an area for holding more paper inside. Why do people enjoy deep pressure. Should I be embarresed. How can I not be embarresed. Are there other ways of getting deep pressure.
I tried the rocking with my laptop thing a few days ago and LOVED it. Then again, I did it in front of a friend of mine who looked at me and basically said WTF? I think the actual comment was that it looked like I was "F**king my computer." We have been arguing about my self-diagnosis and so that made things interesting... (Then again... he was drunk at the time and I think my stimming is a far healthier pleasurable activity than his artificial alcohol high.)
As to why it is enjoyable, I read an excellent explanation in another thread about a week ago. It seems that pressure releases endorphins in the brain that are pleasurable and relaxing.
Now about embarrassment... There are two ways to go about it: Either you learn to control your stimming and hold off on it until you are alone or you adopt a new attitude towards life. I have learned to pick my battles with regards to my quirks. I basically look at the world in a way that lets me care less about other people's opinions so long as I am not harming anyone. However, I do try NOT to hurt other people's feelings by picking my words as carefully as I can and apologizing when I mess up. Stimming, when it happens and I don't realize it, is just one of those things I do. If someone comments to me that it bothers them then I realize I am doing it and stop. I try not to do it in public because of the possible negative social consequences but it still happens a lot.
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Uncertain of diagnosis, either ADHD or Aspergers.
Aspie quiz: 143/200 AS, 81/200 NT; AQ 43; "eyes" 17/39, EQ/SQ 21/51 BAPQ: Autistic/BAP- You scored 92 aloof, 111 rigid and 103 pragmatic